fatedwings~*

sayc

2009-09-04T16:16:00.001+08:00

aaargh i can't believe i'm mugging sayc now

skype what????????????????

2009-08-20T19:54:00.003+08:00

CAN SOMEBODY PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO USE SKYPE???
i'm sorry i'm such a flop at techno-social devices ie facebook/skype/etc. because i only use msn )))))):

and i'm sorry everybody for blogging very sporadically - and not blogging long posts either - because, uh,

well let's just say i will have moments when i will blog,
JUST WAIT OKAY.
:DD

ki indulgence

2009-08-19T22:18:00.001+08:00

hee, i can't help but read my IS again everyday i come back from school, because i am SO PROUD OF YOU <333

2999

2009-08-13T01:12:00.001+08:00

2999 words!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHA
i am very proud of my IS <3

ki consult

2009-08-08T16:56:00.002+08:00

yay consultation went quite well :D we took 100 mins, which i guess isn't too bad (although people like weijian just took 45 mins wth) in the end we kinda digressed and started talking about how econs is such a lousy social science (positivist failll) and about going to yale (= impossible btw unless you're an auyong or a wanjoo) and finally we talked about like almost everyone in my ki class (hee, seems like there's always gossip involved whenever i'm in the conversation oops) and how they're doing and how generally my class grades dropped this year except for a selected few like me and jonchan and simjoo because EVERYONE ELSE HATES SS AND HISTORY AND AESTHETICS ugh asdfghjkl how can you srsly like math and science MATH IS SUCH A TOUGH COOKIE GRRRRRR. okay once my final editings are done, i can proceed to churning out outlines for mr chong yeahhh, go jorel.

oops this wasn't paragraphed.

-alt-tabs back to my IS word doc-

her morning elegance/haato adventure

2009-08-07T18:08:00.003+08:00

wow, it seems like the nat day season gets duller and duller with after every passing year like there's no more excitement, or is it because
we're all growing up?

did corridors became narrower;
the toilet sink, smaller;
my bed, shorter;
the ceiling, lower; or is it because
we've all grown up?

hmm, what's after all of this?
(looks like mid-life crisis came early for jorel)

~

wish me luck for ki consultation tmr D:
(I REALLY THINK KI SHOULD BE A H3, SERIOUSLY)

wenny! pon-yo

2009-08-04T20:36:00.002+08:00

ahh okay i never blogged about wenny's birthday because i've been busy is-ing ):
(erm there isn't really any reason to validate my situation of blogging now either though, other than the fact that i'm slacking, oops)

BUT SPARE ME FROM ASDFGHJKL IS-ING, it is quite very straining on the eyes, and on my dreams ): ): ): now i don't get the awesome surreal dreams that i used to get, it's just PROPA-FREAKING-GANDA EVERY DAMNED DAY!!!!!!! ><

but my spamming will cease when my hiatus arrives, which awesomely coincides with natdayhols! :DDD but, only for 3 dayyyys (and there will be 182738812 other stuff to do life is kinda hard like a rock drifting in the vast ocean aimlessing wandering as the waves sweep the sands of time from the shores into the vast depths of blue-ness)
*ohshit rocks don't float

so i will cherish the most of it, yes i will! (Y)

anyway yesterday nat and i played lf2 stage 5 with dual firzens on the mrt on the way home and we got to the last part and brought julian down to less than 2k hp AND THEN MY LAPTOP DIED GAHHHH DAMMIT! ! ! !!!!! oh and today me soh vincom2 and tzerhan played waterbottle soccer but we kinda died after 10 minutes;

we are growing old.
but memories don't really fade so easily, do they? (:

haha i'm still very very glad for 4p. if only we'd have our own table for prom
assuming that:
1. i'll actually be going for prom
2. 6y doesn't go on cruise/genting trip and pon prom
3. daniel lee's anti-prom boycotting doesn't succeed (even though i would very much desire otherwise!)

LOL okay and chengxiang makes good sense when he said 4 of us could pool the money for prom to buy an xbox and lan halo, totally seems so much more worth it HAHAHAHAHA awesome.

it's kinda weird btw, i never really thought i would actually pon prom haha. maybe i won't in the end, but who know? (:

acachamps champs! :D

2009-07-31T23:51:00.003+08:00

I AM SO PROUD OF ALL OF YOU,
you all totally deserved both the judges favourite and the first prize (:

haha you all are such an bunch of enthu and amazingly talented singers okay!!! :D
congrats to ben dan den fan guan ian joel kj shu okay, you guys were soo awesome. like improving from some messy mess in 3 hours? to some imbaaa level that totally pwned the other groups who train all year, hee. (Y)

TODAY WAS A GOOD DAY.

KI IS IS DONE

2009-07-30T04:34:00.004+08:00

WAHHHAHAHAA IT'S 4.30 AM IN THE MORNING AND I'M FINALLY DONE WITH MY IS!!
lol and considering that i made a new draft and wrote everything from scratch (like using new blank document) at 9pm, i'm goooood (Y)
in any case i am happy with my draft now (thanks alot weijian) so CONSULTATION HERE I COMEEE :DDD

okay since it's like 4.30am if i go and sleep i'd probably oversleep or something because i have <2 hours to sleep -.- so ya i'm gonna read uh simulation and simulcra by jean baudrillard now postmodern ftw1 lol and btw everything feels surreal now i won't be surprised if this post doesn't appear on my blog because it may just be a dream or perhaps an evil demon is giving me sensations of blogging okay whatever run-on lines failing i go off now bye

[edit]
LOL I JUST PLAYED BRIDGE FOR 2 HOURS :/
okay time for school zzz
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socrates

2009-07-29T19:05:00.003+08:00

'Socrates married late in life to a "shrew". People were allowed to talk that way about women back then. Socrates described his wife Xantippe as a horse that was difficult to ride.'

HAHAHAHA i know socrates probably didn't mean it THAT way but lolll
yay random research on is to make my day (Y)

gic

2009-07-22T20:32:00.003+08:00

ingenue;

okay why doesn't anybody find 1:07 or 2:02, or even the song in general, familiar at all??? i hear it like almost everywhere D:

anyway THANK GOD for Ion Orchard and Prints! <3 omg everything there's so ex, but they make really really nice presents! it's like a muji bookshop lol

oh ya anyway outside ion orchard there was some crowd which was like all armed with cameras and cameraphones and taking picture of some guy (i thought they were taking picture of the glass window because i didn't really see anything there) then i went up to one of them and asked what's happening and got daoed but some other girl beside me heard and said kobe bryant's here

then i was uh, what?

then she went, you knowwww, the basketballer?

ya duh i know, but he's just a basketballer, so i kinda nodded and walked off. i bet her eyes were burning with fury behind those aviators, oops :/

oh gic talk was good they're really nice people haha but it's sooo competitive;
i hope all the amazing outstanding gpa > 9000 get the psc scholarship so we'd have less competition yay :D

jenny!

2009-07-17T22:18:00.007+08:00

gahh i haven't had fever for a long looong time, but amazingly it went away in 1 day so today i only (which was totally spent sleeping and eating 3 uncle tobys, 1 char siew bao and like 20 handfuls of raisins lololol yum)

yeah friday was actually quite happening because jenny came to school to visit! haha she's like the only j4 girl i know D: ahh everyone's so amazing and talented and all going overseas to live in nice gothic campuses made of stone and brick and not so much metal and glass because it looks 'modern' -.- and and and those campuses are like random and self sustaining with shops + banks + salons + cafes + restaurants + bars + INDOOR MARKET OMG (okay i'm using the best campus in UK a an example, so xD)
WORK HARD JOREL CHAN, THEN YOU CAN GO TO ANY UNI YOU WANT.

yeah anyway when i reached home on friday i felt like a lethargic lump of sick mess but i NEVER fall so sick so i stupidly stayed up to do more IS D: then i tried to go sleep, but i woke up more than 5 times between 12-6am and kinda just walked around in the house like some boreddd undead. anyway on saturday i was 38 degrees, good job la epic fail. so i kinda just slept the whole day away >_>

OKAY WHAT FREAKED ME OUT MOST WAS THE STALKERLETTER.
i accidentally left my chem book (the one where i do all my tutorials and notes in) under some table at A44 on thursday after my lesson ended around 3, and when i went back to find it on friday, uh i found it, along with one page written on by random person (who probably has like 5-second attention span or something damn weird) and a piece of foolscap with HORRENDOUS chinese (and when I say horrendous you know i really mean it) which is equally random, gahh >< i would gladly scan a copy to prove its authenticity, but my technological circumstances currently fail me, so i shall just type it out D:

===

Dearest Jorel,
You are a funny funny boy boy, okay okay? But, if you want to leave your foolscap paper here, please do. It is quite nice and tasty around the edges. YOU ARE AN INSPIRATION TO THE WORLD!! Perhaps one day when you acquire the status of super junior vice-president you shall reveal your mysterious face and we shall contemplate the severity of this situation. If, perhaps, you are in a quagmire as to whether or not bunnies are pink and fly around with absolutely no aim in mind, kindly refer to your appendix. Or your addendum. Actually, most would prefer the former as it is undubitably difficult to excavate your addendum in order to take a look at it and/or ask it out for high tea. By the way, your institution needs YOU! If you set up a pastiche, you might engender worldwide fame and recognition for beavers to see. Very exciting, innit? Yesterday I saw something like that eating a small-ish table that spoke with a rather bad stutter. I was quite scared. Say... do you speak Sanskrit? If you do you and my good friend Timmy shall get along pretty well. But according to philosophers far and wide general animal-driven vehicles don’t make too awesome friends. Perhaps some time this autumn something properly unsmelly and fuzzy shall tumble down into our midst in a tiny and compact parcel. A random cow crossing the street at that exact moment would probably get spooked and publish established secrets in 25 different but inherently contradictory languages. Oh fyi, I have an impression of your voluminous hair swaying in the wind. What a view! Somewhere in the lesser indigenous tribes that inhabit the Northern hemisphere a blind man sheds a lone tear. Please never be blind to that jarring fact. Aw man my pen has no more ink!! Can you please move your big hair? I can’t see.

Much love,
me.

===

SO FREAKING WEIRD OMG ARGH!!!!!1!1!!!11111
I am so disturbed right now.

15072009 i love my birthday

2009-07-15T23:47:00.005+08:00

lol this was actually some draft full of expletives! and a variety of self-defeating and angsty statements that weren't really logical anyway so,

[EDITALL]

yay today i actually left house on time, but somehow the train BROKE DOWN THREE TIMES on the way to school, like some demon possessed train please. it was like grinding the tracks and humping up and down the rail so it was super uncomfortable and the seats kept rocking, and it sporadically stopped for a while before continuing (and BREAKING DOWN isn't included in this section of complaints, amazing huh) oh and at woodlands the doors kept opening and closing like for at least 4 times, talk about evil demon lol. :/ haha and it was raining like some cow too. GRREEAAATT start for the day huh D:
yay anyway i got to school on time (kinda) and i am very very grateful for
1)guitar strings + 4p shirt from keveen
2)gravity book from joshben
3)alcoholic bottle full of m&ms from vict
4)plushie from boboboys
5)'nowhining' magnet from kaile
6)bottle with origami cranes and notes from 6y <3 [LOL YUJI YOU WROTE TANJOUBI WRONGLY HAHAHAHA FAIL]

hmm anyway lessons were kinda normal except that i STILL HAVE so much to Expound On for IS omg foucault i want moarrrr!!!!1!!!!!!11!!!111

ohh icecream at icekimo with suet and fiona was nice and yummy (omg i've never eaten icecream and waffles together before, so deprived i know oops) and we saw some little kids making out on the sofa not far from where we were sitting: first they were like cuddling with the boy's arm around the girl, then they started leaning on each other and snuggling up and being Very close to each other in general, and then the guy started putting his arms around the girl's waist from behind AND STARTED FEELING HER UP LIKE WTF?!!!?! okay the uniform really had alot of folds so we really couldn't tell if he felt up to her chest BUT YEAH OMG TOO MUCH AFFECTION i'm sorry our eyes are not well adjusted (AND WILL NEVAH BE) to this extent of making out in public, like wth srsly. BUT BUT BUT worst of all, their little friends at the same sofas were taking photos of them fondling each other like they're at some (porn) production shoot or something, like whaaat o.O but i guess they got sian of the icecream ~~(and wanted to taste other creams)~~ so they left, ohh visual liberation ahh.

~

yeah okay i am so relieved that it wasn't seroius, but i really really should stop shooting my mouth off ):
stfu jorel ><

~

I HAD DINNER AT MADJACKS YEAHH <3 okay IMHO (In My Humble Opinion, lol NOT I'M HO[MO] D:) mad jacks and botak jones are like the best places to get really good western/american food without it being too pricey either :D
ahh and the apple pie <3
mmm pie.

okay and being the AMAZINGLY FOCUSED STUDENT THAT I AM, i have finished 2k words for IS yay me but omg i'm stuck SPAM JOREL SPAM GOGOGO

GO...
...ODNIGHT X_X

~

thanks everyone who wished me happy birthday okay it would be damn shameless to put the list of people down here HAHA okay just so you guys know <3

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suprise hotdate with royce (and geoffried D:)

2009-07-12T22:25:00.002+08:00

OMG HAHAHAHAHAHA THANK YOU ROIS+GEOFFRIED FOR THE NUM TEE :DDD
(even though chances are, i'll Never wear a tee that says 'Mr. Pimp' out, ever)

yay i love KAP, it's like the most amazing place to hang out along bukit timah (other than island creamery and mad jacks which both have AWSUM icecream and food mmm) and staircases within a shop/place/house never fail to fascinate me, okay fine for you staircases are uh just staircases butbutbut i just LOVE it whenever i see staircases it like oooh omg new world up there -climbs- and ahhh even walking up the staircases are like my objects of desire (okay it's weird to consider a staircase an object but for the working purpose of this post we shall just make do) yay <3

HAHA I SOUND LIKE SOME RETARDED LITTLE BOY ><

yeah i have to bitch about my phone too
omg it spoiled because i had like 6k++ messages on my phone because i'm lazy to delete them until a point when my phone started to lag because i had too many messages (okay this is damn weird but messages take up how little memory please, i bet like 1k messages is barely as big as a 5megapix photo!!) ya so anyway i wanted to xfer my messages to my memory card and it took like 2 hours+ and then EVERY MESSAGE WAS CORRUPTED so i was like zOMG let's xfer them back but somehow my phone memory shrank (lol i almost typed shrinked) and only like half of the messages got xferred back but i wouldn't know anyway BECAUSE NOW THE INBOX DOES NOT OPEN like wthwthwth i think the world just Moved On without me for a second while i sat there dazed at the techonological FAILURE occurring right before my eyes T_T
so now i'm using a nokia phone (which actually has quite fun games like *easy* sudoku yay) and i keep pressing wrong buttons when i sms and my thumb has to SCRAMBLE all the way to the cancel button because i always accidentally press send when i don't mean to gah this needs some getting used to :/ but i'm already accumulating texts i would aww and keep haha (even though i'll miss the arghmany texts that are nice and sweet trapped in my oldphone sighsighsigh)

OHWELLS GOD WANTS ME TO MOVE ON
argh okay when the guest pastor at my church pronounced Nietzsche as 'neet-cher' i totally lol'd and my friend just Stared at me. okay i admit i don't know how to pronounce Nietzsche either (well as long as you can alliterate it with Nihilist i guess nobody cares what pronunciation it is lol) but it was so singlish-fied it just sounded so badd :/
okay but i thank God i didn't fall asleep in sermon today even though i had to wake up at like 7am akjsdhfkjahf.

gah now's almost 11 and lich should be up from swimming by now but she isn't and i'm bored appearing offline and also bored from electrochem noooo D:

finally, date with gen :DD

2009-07-12T00:18:00.004+08:00

omg today was full of rushing out here and there and almost being late for church D:
and ya argh i think it's like the first time in so many weeks that i'm actually waking up early on saturday (the days i wake up early was like for, chorale?) :/ yes anyway getting to shopping malls < 10 am is a lousy idea because NOTHING is open except for Random fastfoodoutlets and watsons and brashops and cd shops, all of which seriously don't appeal to a person who's just trying to waste time waiting for SOMEONE who just ill-luck with buses hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.

but! i guess heartland mall is pretty nice to walk around and all (they have cool jazzy trippy pieces playing at random parts of the 2nd floor yay i kinda just stood there like an idiot for 3 minutes listening) without the sweaty/smelly/over-dressed/under-dressed crowd at orchard haha, feels more home-y.

anyway gen whee you finding-nemo-freak how does your brain actually have space for, THE WHOLE MOVIE SCRIPT!?!?!?!!?!!!!!! haha i'm so glad we FINALLY managed to go out haha, but even the 4 hours felt so short ): (even though we just occupied space at kfc hee)

ahhh and church was kinda fun i guess because there was some elijah quiz and we got jacked at one question which seems damn obvious:

how did elijah ascend to heaven?
1.cloud
2.chariot of fire
3.whirlwind
3.bright light

everyone thought that it was 2 because it just seems so freaking obvious idkwai but YA CHARIOTS OF FIRE SHOULD'VE BEEN THE ANSWER, but argh it was actually God who came down on the chariot of fire; it was the WHIRLWIND from behind the chariot of fire that swept elijah into heaven arghagrhgarhgarhgarh, sneeeaky :/

ya then i came home and printed out scores to mugmugmug ohnoes i haven't finished learning the chords yet gahhh howhowhow T_T

sighsighsigh gen cat suet D:

2009-07-06T00:16:00.001+08:00

ahhh if i ever lose my history of msn chatlogs i think i would just foam and die on the spot, haha.

our time is running outttttttttttt

typography! <3 stars - calendar girl

2009-07-02T00:29:00.003+08:00

Typography
Stars - Calendar Girl

in the midst of exams (or rather when it's gonna end :DD), it's these amazing things that people create that make your day, [that's filled with crumpled lecturenotes and torn tutorials and messy hightlighting and everything and anything else that seems so vaguely related to studying but never fails to annoy the hell out of you,]

just,
so worthwhile.

typography <3

sian missing jhalf of cts zzz

2009-06-29T15:24:00.004+08:00

gah i'm gonna be missing econs and ki and math ):
and i must resist the temptation of playing bridge ohnoes D:

LET ME GO TO SCHOOL!!! ASDKJ!!! FHAS!!! KJHFASLK!!!! JQIUHFUIEWHUIHFG!!!!!!!!!!!

WAHAHAHA BURN YOUR EYES WITH KI LONG CRIT

2009-06-27T13:00:00.004+08:00

for your reading ~~pleasure~~ muahahahaa

ACJC 2008 C2 TERM EXAM

Yet “postmodernism” is a clumsy and unilluminating term, for various reasons. The first has to do with “modernism” itself. In art – literary, musical and visual – Modernism, with a capital “M”, was a movement, largely taking place between the two world wars and, in literature at least, having its annus mirabilis as early as 1922, with the publication of arguably the greatest poem and novel of the twentieth century, T.S. Eliot’s The Waste Land and James Joyce’s Ulysses.

What does seem to be agreed is that the essence of postmodernism, in relation to the reading, teaching and appreciation of written texts, is that, first, there is no limit to be set on what might qualify as a “text” (a bus ticket will do) and no absolute value to be placed on any particular quality of a text: with regard to its aesthetic value, or its significance with reference to its meaningfulness or meaninglessness – let alone any qualities of a moral or spiritual kind, its celebration of eternal verities (which are a chimera in any case). Therefore, there are no “canonical” texts, for example, in the study of literatures in English – no necessary, required reading for graduates with an English Literature degree: a qualification it is perfectly possible to obtain, today, without having read a word of Milton, Pope, Wordsworth, Yeats or T.S. Eliot – the greatest poets of the seventeenth, eighteenth, nineteenth and twentieth centuries. Here, postmodernism is a synonym for intellectual chaos and ignorance.

Essentially, postmodernism is a political phenomenon, deriving from the culture of resentment and victimhood which is one of the least edifying outcomes of the increasingly democratic and demotic twentieth century in Western societies. It is a peculiarly self-defeating, self-destructive and paradoxical phenomenon because, in its opposition to what – in a shorthand term – we might call “high art”, the very people who it is depriving of access to the classics (through demonising them, their creators and their purveyors, as a conspiracy of oppressive elitism or proposing the Marxist dismissal of them as conspicuous waste) are left with a mess of pottage of works which are condescendingly and patronisingly deemed to be the only suitable and “relevant” study for the demos.

Part of the problem with the present-day teaching of literature – apart from the initially disabling conviction that it would be better if “literature”, as a concept, didn’t exist -- is that we know too much. Burdened by the daunting mass of knowledge about the past, for example – now available at your fingertips on the Internet – readers and teachers and syllabus-composers are not unsurprisingly drawn to the watered-down versions of postmodernist theory (which, the philosophers tell me, are so watered down as to be a contradiction of its genuine theoretical bases in the thought of such as Derrida and Foucault). These can, by a theoretical sleight of hand, dispose of the requirements of layers of knowledge which were once required to be brought to the reading of any text worth reading. When this is linked to a politically-driven program to discredit the past in general – which was wrong about everything (only the present, and your present, precisely, having any value or validity) – and an aggressive rejection of any requirement to be humble (or humbled) before the works of genius (derided as a social construction imposed upon the powerless to ensure their submission to elites), that anything of value from the past survives is astonishing.

What are the qualities that distinguish a great work of literary art? All but one of these are offensive to what we might generally gather under the umbrella term of a postmodernist approach to the reading, teaching and appreciation of literary texts. The exception is the close attention to structures of language (or “discourse”, as they like to call it), animated by and expressive of that complexity and subtlety which we expect to find in great literary texts. This, in postmodernist textual study, at its best, is salutary. Unfortunately, it has two major drawbacks. First, the weaker brethren find it the least congenial process of reading, so are inclined to resort to other boiled-down aspects of postmodernist theorising, such as the non-idea of reading and evaluating a text purely in terms of what it says to you, the reader, and how it speaks to your life (and your “journey”, to use one of the terms beloved of syllabus composers), without regard to the contexts biographical, intellectual, historical and social which produced it and to which any intelligent reading of a text must submit in order for a cogent comprehension and assessment of it even to be initiated.

And secondly, it misses the essential point of literary study, by focusing attention on structure rather than meaning which, in combination with the reader-centred evaluation, counteracts the power of a great text to lift us out of our own inevitably limited selfhood and contemporary situation to focus on a larger interpretation of life and human existence which may utterly contradict everything that we, to date, have believed or accepted as valuable, but which encourages our attention because of the combination of intellectual substance and aesthetic accomplishment which are the hallmarks of great artistic expression in literature and which, in time, may come to sustain us in life itself. This, for the postmodernist, is a bourgeois fantasy. The self is the only self-sustaining entity, alone and palely loitering in the wasted land of postmodernist subjectivism, in the final death-throes of Romanticism which is contemporary culture.

Literature should be occupied about its proper and ancient business, of the immortal expression of profound truths, challenging the decay of present mores – Wordsworth has the Industrial Revolution and its aftermath in mind – it thus presents a vision of and response to life that perennial in its cope and expression. The challenge – and no-one is denying that the fact is difficult ( that is part of what makes it worthwhole) is to submit to what it has to say, connect with it through a considerable amount of research (into the circumstances of the poem’s composition and its various references), and the see how and whty it has spoken to readers.

How convincing is the author’s conclusion? Support your answer with relevant ideas pertaining to the field of Aesthetics.

~

The author’s main conclusion seems to be that we should not accept the postmodernist school of thought in terms of aesthetics on the grounds that subscription to this theory devalues the great and amazing artworks of the past and makes art less able to be appreciated by the masses, since all art is of the same worth. He has a few main arguments that lead to this conclusion, most of which are severely biased in their language. Firstly, before I delve deeper into analysing the content of his article, I have to say that the language he has chosen for the purpose of this essay is bias and to a certain extent, excessive and verbose. He has obviously been indulging himself such that he would be able to easily sway the readers to side with his blatantly prejudiced and conservative viewpoint. Moreover, he attempts to confuse the readers by adding many hidden rhetoric within his hardly controlled use of parentheses, eventually making his points rather broken and linguistically incoherent, hence the reader finds it hard to follow his argument with a clear-headed mind.

The first argument he has made is that the definition of postmodernism is in the first place hard to pin down, such that there is no proper definition for him to work with should he use postmodernism. However, this school of thought is defined in this way, because, in colloquial language, ‘anything goes’. There is no other need for improving on this definition, because it is both redundant and impossible. There are no ‘restrictions’ that can be placed in this school of thought, because it accepts everything to have aesthetic value. From this, we can tell that the author is stubborn in his own way of thinking that he does not learn to accept this when it is obviously being defined for him to its fullest extent. He then tries to expound on the ‘inception’ of postmodernism and how it actually came about, by attempting to relate it to modernism. However, it is said that postmodernism is a recalcitrant extrapolation of modernism; it is modernism brought to the extremes such that the denial of traditional beliefs are deconstructed and that is why everything is said then to have equal value. The author already shows his inherent anti-postmodernism sentiments in that he says that the best works of literature are TS Elliot’s The Waste Land, in this case he already assumes there is a standard to live by, when in postmodernism there is nothing.

He goes on to argue that postmodernism should not be accepted since everything and anything can be accepted as a literary text, regardless of its aesthetic value. Hence in postmodernism there can be no ‘canonical texts’ that we can look up to as the Greatest Works of Art of All Time. He seems to make a logical argument here, in postmodernism might lead to a degradation of aesthetic value in art pieces due to its equitable nature of accepting everything. It is right that one may have been enlightened by reading works of Milton or Pope or Wordsworth or Yeats or TS Elliot, but it does not rule out the fact that we achieve enlightenment from other authors too. For instance, we can look at Samuel Beckett and his literary pieces, though minimalist, they do shed light onto the aspects of human nature that we may fail to see sometimes. He is unwilling to accept that it is possible to glean knowledge of the arts from artworks that are not, or rather, have not been accepted yet, and yet he is already ruling out their possibility on enlightening us.

The author brought this further in saying that we are essentially depriving the access to the classics through its demonization, but this is far from true. Postmodernism does not devalue texts, they merely bring every piece of art (that is to be called art) to the same aesthetic level, demonising to far too strong a word in this case. Just because other pieces of art can be accepted, it does not mean that the people are unable to access the art pieces. We are not left with a ‘mess of pottage of works’, we have been given a larger variety of works to choose and understand the world from, such that we are not only limited to the ‘elitist’ views of great poets, but also various reclusive artists as well. We would not want everyone to be enlightened in only one way, do we? Here, the author emphasises the importance of Classics, but without paradigm shifts and revolutions in culture, how could we have gotten such a myriad of classics that we can learn from? It goes to show that only with change can we be ever-learning and ever-enlightened. According to Kuhn, the theories are only true within the paradigm of this era. However, if we move on and be open to other ways of truth that may only be true in other paradigms, it may not necessarily be closer to the truth, but it is this progress that would lead to the eventual realisation of the truth. This is to say that if we are stubborn and obstinate and just conservative and merely wish to live in the past, it is impossible to glean new knowledge.

The author then goes on the say that postmodernism is a move which is ‘linked to a politically-driven program to discredit the past’ and this rejects ‘the requirement to be humble before the works of genius’. This seems to actually explain the major flaws in postmodernism, I concede, but it is unfair to say that it discredits the past; it seems to being more open and accepting the future and welcoming new pieces to be called art. [Time’s up] It is exactly this openness that led to where we are today; if people only listened to Mozart of the Classical Era and thought that Debussy’s pieces of the Romantic Era were utter rubbish, we would have never had this move that would eventually lead to the various kinds of music that we have now, say jazz and rock. If Gauguin did not start impressionist painting and only kept the style of say, Manet’ realist paintings, then we would not have movements that would have led to painting we see around us now. If we will always have to retrospect and forever live under the shadows of the ‘great’ people of the past, how are we to move on and produce new genres of art? While subscribing to the theory of Historical, it seems that there is great importance of keeping the tradition of art that have been long-considered art to stay as those epitomes of art, but if we only look at these epitomes of art, we may be missing out on so much more there is the world has to give us in terms of aesthetics. Merely look into the past will not help us to advance into the future and achieve new forms of knowledge, because we can attest to the unreliability of knowledge in that era, as shown by the Copernican and Heliocentric model of the solar system.

He starts to state that postmodernism would in fact be devaluing pieces of art, when ‘the weaker brethren finds it the least congenial process of learning’. He starts saying that these people will start evaluating art on how it speaks to you, and not exactly on how context produces it. In the first place, who is he to say that evaluating it based on what emotive or cognitive responses we get from it is wrong? Sure, we can ascribe to the theory of Representation and say that the art work has to have a comment on the world at large. But we cannot say for sure that that is what the artist intended in the first place, he might have had something else in mind. However, if we accept that art can speak to you, through catharsis as put forth by Aristotle, then by the Expression theory we are actually obtaining truths about beauty of the art pieces, even though they are non-propositional knowledge that cannot in any way be quantified. However, as long as we know in our own hearts what they have spoken to us, it is a sufficient condition for us to use it as a way of improving our lives as it may have shown us insights in our human nature. And is that not what the pursuit is all about, advancing the nature of humans?

The author starts saying that postmodernism focuses more on structure than on meaning, as he thinks that intellectual substance and aesthetic judgement are ‘hallmarks of great artistic expression, but these to a postmodernist is merely a ‘bourgeois fantasy’. Here he is once again assuming that postmodernism destroys what there is left of intellectual substance and aesthetic judgement. However, even though postmodernism allows for anything to be art, what knowledge each and every single individual gleans from the art is very diverse and in fact is still the same. For instance, no matter if we subscribe to knowing that that certain artwork, say Starry Night by Vincent Van Gogh is recognised as a renowned piece of art, when we look at it, we will still be feeling the awe of the large celestial bodies exhibited and yet the darkness that looms within. It is under only the circumstance of taking Institutionalism as a subscribed theory will we have biased viewpoints towards art that is recognised and art that is not. This is an extremely fallacious theory as this excludes the fact that we can actually achieve knowledge from obscure unrecognised art, which is not impossible.

In conclusion, I feel that the author is not giving both sides of the picture, as he only writes against postmodernism and does not celebrate the fact that postmodernism may actually be the way that we may expand our knowledge of aesthetics and embrace that many other things can be considered to be art, not merely the ones that curators say are. And hence, even though his conclusions mostly logically flow from his premises, I do disagree with much of his premises (and language) and hence I am not thoroughly convinced by his conclusion.

SUPERCHANKY

2009-06-27T01:18:00.003+08:00

SUPERCHANKY HAHAHAHAAHAHAA :DD

con spirito

2009-06-25T03:09:00.001+08:00

a TENORTWO gμαπ' says:
you know their theme is con spirito right
then for their finale
cause it wasn't really emphasized veh strongly through the camp
so veh little people rmb
thne
the finale
was go solve an anagram lah
like
different people come together then solve
then
the first one they formed was
spit on RICO

HAHAHAHHAA OMG DAMN GOOD wthwthwth it's damn awesome our juniors rock (Y)

wake up from your sins

2009-06-24T20:01:00.004+08:00

omg i woke up at 12noon today after 10 hours of sleep from 40 hours of no sleep, before i slept the blood vessels in my eyes were freaking streaks of red :/ yay pull off an all-nighter ftw (Y) gah i will never do that ever again, i would just die D:

DAMMIT, WAKE UP FROM WHATEVER YOU'VE BEEN HOLDING ON TO.
just let go jorel chan it's not worth your time

haha i always hate reading such esoteric blogposts but inevitably i just had to post this :/

i lux euu <3

2009-06-22T00:20:00.008+08:00

Plop;

glug,

glug,

glug...

(ahh o nata lux
& lux aurumque
& o lux beatissima)

[i love drowning myself in sacred music haha]

...thud! <3

don't drop your arms

2009-06-19T19:37:00.008+08:00

ahh yesterday some guy at my condo asked me if i was a japanese HAHA. :DD
THIS IS SO FATED, ROYCE I HOPE YOU GET YOUR MFA SCHOLARSHIP SO YOU CAN PASS ME OFF AS YOUR WIFE AND YOU CAN SMUGGLE ME INTO JAPAN XDD
[edit] aww it's okay, when we both earn big bucks we can still go japan and this time i don't need to be smuggled yay [/edit]

and today after going out with geof and bang i went home and slept for 6 hours -.- i guess it's the late nights up the last few nights (like doing the impossible quiz and the impossible quiz 2 and the world's hardest game lol), sighs. gahh my IS is so messed up, it's a total wreck and all i've done is to edit language and expound on my topic sentences but it sounds so INCOHERENT and DISJOINTED and almost into the realm of waffling on and on and on and on
and on
and
onnomnom

OMG IT'S 8PM AND I'M SUPPOSED TO COLLECT MY BOOK I PHOTOCOPIED AT THE PHOTOCOPY SHOP ARGH (hehe saves so much munny lol) ohwell i just called them and they said i can collect it tmr whew(:

anyway geof thanks for teaching me all the screwy chords it's really damn beautiful, makes normal chord progs sound so much more coloured, not like power chords -.- haha but I DON'T CARE PORTISHEAD ROCKS, ROADS <33

but anberlin fanboying first yay kevin you rock
anberlin is amazingggg theirs songs sound like dcfc and acdc :D
aahhhh dcfc (: (: (:

presenting,
'The Unwinding Cable Car'
by Anberlin

2:30
you're so brilliant, don't soon forget
you're so brilliant, grace marked your heart <3

math is cool!

2009-06-18T14:48:00.005+08:00

YESSS I LOVE MATH! <3 <3 <3
i just hope i can finish my math june revision by sat morn (means 3am lol)

omgomgomg i nearly forgot
on friday i've got math consult at 2
then chem consult at 4
and i wanna find pao-er but he's daoing my smses ): so i'll go at uh
9. to do work
but knowing me i'll find
alot of people i know around there and
start talking
and talking and
talking
until i don't get any
work
done
zzz
-.-

anyway jazz party laterrrrr in 3 hours' time :D

k back from jazz farewell omg awesome i love ruiling's house(:
ahh why jarrod lee leaving, sian :/
hahhahaa anyway i FINALLY found the stupid oldie song which had the melody playing through my head since caroling. lol it's not some damn amazing song but it's lovely haha(:

presenting,
only love.
please enjoy :D

lol a dream

2009-06-16T22:13:00.004+08:00

lol i just woke up from a nap that overshot by like 3 hours omg stupid phone just died on me grahh i need to get a bluetooth device soon because i lost my wire and i wanna save all my smses into the computer so MY PHONE WILL JUST STOP LAGGING. :/

anyway i dreamt about some BIG house (like the ponyoboy's house on the hillside one) and i was strolling around in my fbts and probably a tshirt too but can't rmb then suddenly the guy who owns the house came out and asked me if i liked the house so i said i wouldn't know unless i went in so he let me in but he only let me in by the top so i walked ALL the way to the top and he opened the door and the ceiling still looked damn high then somehow i realised that's the first floor actually and the whole house was like a stairway taken from mc escher's crazy artworks (you know those stairways that go everywhere around and people can walk upside down summore and not fall off) zzz reminds me of my favourite map in gunz but ya then i think i went through alot of doors and i can't rmb what happened but then i went into one door and i got into ntuc but it was a really really big ntuc and i could FLY okay not really, more like floating (like sora gliding in kh la after a while you'll descend due to noobness) so i was gliding around the crockery section and saw handgloves and detergent and then i reached the food section with cereal and soyjoy (lol i can't rmb why soyjoy either) and snacks and sweets and i started flying into some toys section with hotwheels and barbie and i was gonna fall already so i started kicking off the shelves that were empty to stay in the air and this is was like the most colourful part of the dream and i'm sure there were manymany more toys but i really can't rmb ya then i was descending so i turned on my back facing the ground and started kicking and doing backstroke in the air until i bumped into some woman who's from my church who teaches me piano but she was really nice and let me continue flying then i saw suet and kia buying groceries but kia wasn't really smart so he carried all the stuff in his hands (LOL i would kill for this kinda husband, like if i were a girl in need of a husband and all etcetc.) ya and then i saw quan and she was running away from home then i was asking her of all places to run away to why ntuc then i can't rmb what she said

then i realised that 1 hour could've have been enough to dream all this weird shit.

sian why couldn't i fly to the frozen meat/dairy products section i bet it would've been damn cooling grah dammitdammitdammit

YA LA I'M STUDYING OKAY VALYEO

mal-asia =/= truly asia

2009-06-14T20:29:00.007+08:00

you know the way when something malfunctions it fails to function properly?
and when something's a malware it's a harmful software?
.
.
.
uhh,
then what's malaysia supposed to mean D:

yeah okay fine, like any gp essay (as all of you know, i am a brilliant gp student -grins-), i have to give both sides of the issue before claming my full marks.

WATURF KJAHSDJ A BEETLE JUST LANDED ON MY HEAD WTHWTHWTH
lol okay i threw it in the dustbin already

okay i'll start with the bad side first la since it's so much easier:
1.they keep having construction works FOREVER.
2.they have freaking many curved roads that like are like U shaped so after like 3 you get a headache already. OH and my ~~damn racist~~ sister who exhibits signs of epidermal favouritism (ooh i just love euphemisms) was telling me like why the government didn't wanna build straight roads. it's because if you build straight roads, there would be like corners and then all there'd be alot of 'SIALA BRUDDER RELAK ONE KORNER' so if you build curved roads these wouldn't happen. and i lol'd at her, (but maybe that's really the govt's agenda! D:)
3.you know, maybe the causeway's some magical apparatus that has the amazing ability to warp time and space; like when you travel across the causeway into malaysia, it's like you went into the past and landed in singapore 134890263 years ago!!! okay fine, probably like the 1940s or something, most likely 1942. but ya omg it looks so (euphemism alert!) rustic and retro and rural (oh alliteration alert too lolol), just brings back soo much memories -that i was never born in time to have, aw.- yaaa and about the warping space thing, it really makes everything look more erm, uh, (wow this is hard), (okay i give up dictionary.com here i come), (omg suck they don't help at all wth), CENTRALISED. maybe because they lack landspace so they gotta use the land wisely i guess, ~~but they've got so much mud around what!~~ okay gonna get owned soon lol, and i'm not done yet D: D: D:
4.oh lol the chinese taxi driver said that the fare was actually 10 dollars but he charged us 9, but if we were malays he'd charge us 10; lol seems there's inter-malaysia racial strife too xD
5.every word seriously looks like they should have red squiggly lines under them -.- okay fine, if they use Mikrosoft Word the words would probaly turn out fine LOL

oh oops i forgot about the good points
but anyway 1) there are really alot of indie shops that sell really hip and cool shirts and shorts and when you convert to sing dollars they're really cheap for their quality! 2) uh, it's convenient to travel from singapore.

yay okay erm, not very balanced but i tried k, sorry too imba already lol.

i like the shorts i bought from there, they're really nice, actually i looked at the shorts in the girls' section but they told me it was the girls' section so they went to find for me a similar design in the guys' section, and my sister was laughing at me :/ but they couldn't find a similar design so i chose another design. then my sister went to buy the one i liked, damn suanned :/

ANYWAY I MET JULIA THERE OMG i haven't talked to her in ages, she just zaos after service -.-

hmm okay uh,
how does bonding in SiO4 contribute to its hardness,
and how does bonding in PbO2 not contribute to it's electrical conductivity?
PLEASE ANSWER THESE STUPID QUESTIONS ARE KILLING ME I DON'T GET IT.

KTHXBAI

pqqdate!

2009-06-12T23:32:00.002+08:00

yesterday was so fun and yummy(: PQQ you're so funny, but omg stop being bochup and go exercise or something!!! ohh and icekimo was soo good, i've never spent so much on icecream in a fortnight before; it burned a hole in my pocket (lolol irony i know), but it's all worth it mmmm :D

I STILL THINK ISLANDCREAMERY IS STILL THE BEST BECAUSE THERE'S EYECANDY TOO HAHAHHAHHAA(:

yeah and lol thomasang was telling me how weird and funny sam is flailing her arms around and that it's impossible to mug when sam's around HAHA i hope she doesn't read this hehehe (Y)

ehh okay i think we really cannot be seen together or else there'll be super alot of scandals because i've got retarded classmates (aka chengxiang) and juniors (aka caoyifan) who will shout my name and be damn embarrassing and a Pest to society in general. ~~(I REALISED THEY'RE FROM CHINA LOL TOTALLY EXPLAINS EVERYTHING)~~ haha okay kidding, if i put anymore racist stuff i'd seriously get owned by random people who are actually stalkers, or spies sent by the govt ohnoes! D:
and most epic of all it happens whenever i'm with you loh (Y)

yay okay i finished my physics papers and omg i wanna play bridge zzz -.-

ethnic cleanser

2009-06-10T20:39:00.006+08:00

a TENORTWO -`Chanky; says:
LOL
if the facial product like
bleaches your skin
makes it damn fair
so even indians become white
then they can call the cleanser
ethnic cleanser
k says:
lol.
wtf!!
u go put on ur blog la
bet u get flamed

lol shit i hope i don't get owned D:

it'd probably be possible though, like if hitler was a dermatologist, and alive duh. (Y) but then again, he'd probably derive more pleasure killing them off, lol -.-

daddy's in hospital

2009-06-10T20:06:00.004+08:00

daddy just got admitted (or rather he just walked into the hospital and admitted himself in, lol) into NUH for uhh irregular heartbeat and chest pains etcetc. yesterday he went for an angiogram (ya it's a unit for weighing your arteries -.-) and there was some uhh clogged artery? [God's being funny, first he clogs my pores, then he clogs my dad's artery; what's next, my mum's sink? D:] so he's gonna have an op to insert some balloon thing in the clogged area to allow blood to flow loh. hahaha he'll be fine, but pray for him k(:

it's quite scary to actually realise that my parents would eventually die, like only when things like these happen? it's really really damn easy to take them for granted, home-cooked dinners, pocket money, snapping back at them when they start nagging; i think life's gonna be pretty frightening/empty for me if anything happened to them now

but i think too much, i hope ><

hhahahhaa and i should post more rantposts so people would tag more HAHA wth stalkers, all of you!! D:

okay this is some super secret sekret shhh,
but i actually wanna own one of those daaamn short going-out shorts that those hip girls with smecksy legs wear (IF YOU WILL GET ME ONE I WANT WHITE OKAY :D)

~
PQQ THIS FRIDAY! :D

I HATE YOU NEUTROGENA!!!!!!!1111!!1!!!11

2009-06-09T17:52:00.008+08:00

AARARGRAHRGAHRGRAHRGH,
my face is like spotted with red and swollen and annoying bumps on my skin, but most epic of all, how did this happen???
because one fine and dandy day, my sister bought a new cleanser and said oh use this it's good for your skin, so i used it because ohhh yes it reads 'Exfoliates and Cleans Deeply and Closes Pores', oh wow so yeah what could go wrong

But what the hell!?!?? YEAH RIGHT you exfoliate, unless exfoliating means filling your face with 2178623796 reddish bumps that are daamn uncomfortable, like what?!?!! and if they're all red and bumpy how do you clean and close the pores huh oh great and mighty cleanser?!

LIES! ALL LIES!!! D: D: D:
lol dermatologically tested my akjshdfjkhsjfk, HMPH.

CURSE YOU, NEUTROGENA DEEP CLEAN FACIAL CLEANSER!!11!!!11!!!1!1!1!1111

Seriously, i don't get it.
How is it that one can get Epidermal Reactions to Skincare (read: CARE) products!! Like, what the hell?!!?! This is just so retarded omg, so how am i supposed to actually take care of my skin if SKINCARE products don't do it? -.-

life daamn tough :/

yay sunday end of week 1 amazing

2009-06-07T23:55:00.008+08:00

hahahaha i actually kinda blogged about everyday this week, but i kinda locked it up because i didn't write in nice coherent sentences so if i actually posted it you'd die of run-on-lines-o-phobia or something D: yeah anyway this kinda sums up what happened this week, it's like one of the better weeks i've had in these 2 years :D

monday:
ns check up with yisheng (YA WTH WHY DO I HAVE A HEARING PROBLEM THAT SUPPOSEDLY COMES WITH AGING, WHAT THE!??!!!)
went out with wenny to orchard for gelatissimo (is that like very gelato the way pianissimo means very piano :/)
piano ensemble concert with you la happy i blogged about you ego pig (:

tuesday:
class bbq at vincom2's place + spamming buttons on ps controller ftw (Y)

wednesday:
madjacks+islandcreamery with suet (IT'S SO YUMMY OMG SUPER GOOOD i could just survive on madjacks and islandcreamery, if only financial concerns weren't an issue T_T)

thurs/fri:
suppposed date with quan/gen D: (I HOPE YOU BOTH FEEL GUILTY READING THIS BWAHAHAHA)

sat:
went with geof for chorale (oh ya omg fionalee i hope you're feeling better, i don't think that's such a good way of getting closer to nature LOL XD)
left at noon for church stuff
pastadewaraku with joelle! omg the pasta there is soo good mmm(:

sun:
church + piano lessons with auntie frances
haha i think she's so aaamazing, and i hope work doesn't pile up so badly ><
then BOTAKJONES (JUNKFOODSPAM) with alvin calvin serene jed seb omg whoopass and cajun ftwww

oh ya eh banglah you work hard ah don't slack! :D

epic week (Y)

lol and in 2 hours' time i'm like gonna go for my ns checkup for my ears again -.- argh if i get pes c i won't get as much munny D:

and it's damn hard to actually cheat the hearing test because i CAN'T HEAR THE SOUND gah.

what the hell is going on?

2009-05-28T23:32:00.005+08:00

____ ___ ____ __ _____ __?
the dust has only just begun to form
crop circles in the carpet

sinking feeling.

haha life damn tough

NOTEBOOK AHHHH

2009-05-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

YAY I LOVE MY NEW NOTEBOOK IT LOOKS SO YUMMY I COULD GOBBLE IT UP MMMMM <3

now i can finally actually do work without getting distracted every few minutes cos my desktop's just beside the tv in the hall!
but there is something i hate and resent and really gets me on my nerves: my notebook's got a DAAMN SUCK graphics card (actually, i don't even think it has a graphics card, no nvdia for the lose T_T) so i can't play any games AT ALL. because even flash games like N lags, and everyone knows how much lag affects N, so ya. =.= but i guess it's good so that i'll never be distracted even though i would want to, so this means i'd be forever on task yay (Y)

OH OH I'VE GOT LELOUCH SEASON 1 AND 2 ON MY NOTEBOOK YAY.
i think i shall watch it WHEN I'M FREE THIS WEDNESDAY AT 2PM :DD

tsk, jorel, you're such an ass. (:

textless/+hopeful

2009-05-19T19:28:00.003+08:00

~~haha, my phone feels kinda empty without your texts~~

take care ya, even when nothing's gonna be the same again.
~
on a brighter note, closing this really huge 2499 (wow, the wonders of free unlimited) door has really really made me realise that i've so many wonderful people around me that i've just taken for granted;
i'm just so so blessed that friends are EVERYWHERE and my fears of loneliness are fleeting and unfounded(:

oh lol fiona and dennis went to watch the chinese drama play thing, i feel kinda bad not supporting mr tham, oops :/

GENERVEEFFF I HOPE YOU SURVIVED YOUR LV JOB TODAY!!!
AND AND SEND ME YOUR MOVIE LIST SOON! :DD

i(still)loveyou.

2009-05-16T22:11:00.001+08:00

“somewhere i have never traveled”
e.e. cummings

somewhere i have never traveled, gladly beyond
any experience, your eyes have their silence:
in your most frail gesture are things which enclose me,
or which i cannot touch because they are too near

your slightest look easily will unclose me
though i have closed myself as fingers,
you open always petal by petal myself as Spring opens
(touching skilfully, mysteriously) her first rose

or if your wish be to close me, i and
my life will shut very beautifully, suddenly,
as when the heart of this flower imagines
the snow carefully everywhere descending;

nothing which we are to perceive in this world equals
the power of your intense fragility: whose texture
compels me with the colour of its countries,
rendering death and forever with each breathing

(i do not know what it is about you that closes
and opens; only something in me understands
the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses)
nobody, not even the rain, has such small hands

vjc choir concert

2009-05-14T23:54:00.002+08:00

daaamn i almost wasted $10 of my ticket for vjc cos i kinda fell asleep after intermission and i missed mate saule): ): ):

yeah anyway despite like everything i've heard, i think vj's really really good (from what i consciously+subconsciously heard haha) but their repertoire's like super diff from our kinds.

ANYWAY NAPFA WAS SO SDJKFHSKJADH. i totally thought running barefooted would be faster cos like you'll have less weight weighing you down (but yeah it's quite true), but there was bloody construction and debris scattered all along the track. i swear, they threw the debris there on PURPOSE because they've some secret agenda again people running barefooted so that they'll trip and get hurt on purpose (EVERY SINGLE ROUND OMG), BECAUSE HOW CAN DEBRIS FLY ALL THE WAY FROM THE SIDE OF THE TRACK TO THE FIRST LANE!!?!!?!!!! T_T

but whatever it is i got my gold so yay :D
(+81297389217 blisters on my feet now, oww)

mm yeah anyway thanks for going to the concert with me, i really appreciate it ya. (even though i knew like, 0% of the people there, which NEVER happens, gah)

~
goodnightgoodnight

did you ever talk to God above?

2009-05-12T19:43:00.009+08:00

Did you ever talk to God above?

The past ~~few~~ many days/weeks/month have been so subliminally trying and it's as if i'm trying to survive on my own; on my own emotions, my own thoughts, my own faith. Well, it's not as if i've depended on God so much, but recently, more than ever, my life is revolving around me. I'd usually know in my heart that 'haha God's there, that's why everything's gonna be alright eventually mm', but everything that happened seemed too...human. It's ugly and materialistic and carnal (okay not really carnal that's too sex-y eww); it's satanic.
(note: satanic doesn't have to always mean worshipping satan btw, it's more of self-worship/indulgence so yeah, don't have creepy gory images of ~~diable, diablots, diablotins~~ flying devil, devilkins etcetc. popping up in your heads GAH!!! D: D: D:)
and i don't like it, this stifling atmosphere of sin. But yeah it's over, it really really is. Now, whatever emotional/human struggles i'll submit to Him because i know He'll provide for me no matter what. It's really hard surrendering EVERYTHING, but you've been a good wake-up call (even though i hate seeing you drift). We can't fake our faith, like oh-i'm-so-religious-God-look-at-me-flailing-my-arms-at-you (eee pharisee HAHA). Because God sees through all of that; He looks past everything, and looks STRAIGHT INTO YOUR HEART.

that's why i'll set my heart straight this time!
(gosh, sorry God, i'm late by 13 months, but it'll be good, i promise.)

mm yeah,
it's gonna be a new path for me(:

backslid meng, come back soon k

2009-05-11T23:49:00.001+08:00

Jesus Christ our Savior who is the propitiation, the satisfaction if you would, for our sins, and not just for our sins, but for the sins of the whole world. The blood of Jesus Christ flowed from seven places. The first place He bleed from, the blood that poured from His head that day. The blood from the thorns in His skull cleanse you from thoughts, the blood that was on His face He has covered the things that you may not want to face up to because of what you've seen or heard. Know this, the blood flowed for you.

"Yeah, but Jon, you just don't know I've backed away from the Lord, I've turned my back on him." Well they took a flagellum and they beat His back and blood flowed from His back, it reduced to hamburger meat that day, His back was beaten so brutally. And if you've turned your back on Him and walked away from Him, know this, the blood, the blood that poured from His back, cleanses you sprinkles you.

"Yeah but Jon, you just don't know what I've done with these hands." Those hands were pierced, those hands were pinned to the tree, spikes driven through those hands where He bled to cleanse you and cleanse me from the stuff that we've handled that we ought not to have handled, the stuff that we've done that we ought not to have done. Hey, understand, the blood flowed from His hand.

"Yeah but it's stuff that's inside of me Jon, It's just things that I feel in my gut, I have bitterness towards them, and I'm angry with her." Jesus wants you to know that blood flowed from His side when they thrust th at spear into Him when He hung on the cross.

"Feet that walked where I ought not to have walked." Blood flowed from His feet too, when the spike pinned Him through the feet, to the cross of calvary.

And now I realize things that I can't face up to, thoughts that I've had that are not right, not good, not true, bitterness inside of me, stuff I've touched that I ought not to touch, places I've gone where I ought not to have walked. And I look and I realize the seven-fold flowing of the blood of Christ cleanses me in every area from all sin and I'm free, and I'm forgiven, by the blood.

What can wash away my sin, nothing but the blood of Jesus. Seven times perfection, Seven places, that's what He went through, for me and for you.

NOX AURUMQUE

2009-05-08T20:44:00.007+08:00

presenting,
nox aurumque by eric whitacre.

THANK YOU GENEVIEVE ANG! <333
THIS SONG IS SO WONDERFUL, IT BREAKS MY HEART TEN TIMES OVER.
THE SOP DISSONANCE IS SO AMAZING I COULD JUST DIE LISTENING TO THIS.

whitacre's some genius, seriously.
This is so much more than i could ever ask for,
~~it's more than enough closure for me.~~
i don't need closure anymore, 'cause we'll always be part of chorale right! :DDD

Especially from 3:55 to 4:50!
Why does whitacre compose such CATHARTIC songs; every chord just breaks SOMETHING in my heart): it's so creepy and dark and looming in such a epic and grand and wonderfully whitacre way, my skin's covered with goosebumps every time i hear this (yeah it's on loop haha) and it just makes you wanna EXPLODE but you just CAN'T, because whitacre's genius to keep the magic in you like that.

TODAY I LEARNT THAT GETTING THE CHORD RESOLVED IS SO IMPORTANT, OR ELSE ONE COULD REALLY REALLY DIE OF A WHITEACRE-CHORD HEART ATTACK!!! BECAUSE THE WHITACRE CHORD IS JUST SO MAGICAL!!! IT CONSUMES YOU FROM WITHIN UNTIL YOU EVENTUALLY FAINT FROM UTTER AWE.

ahh ahh i love it when the sops stack on top of each other when they're ascending IT'S JUST SO INCREDIBLE!!!! D: D: D:

hahhahaa if ever j1s, j2s, and j3s could come together to perform this song,
IT WOULD JUST BE SO AMAZING I WOULD GLADLY DIE THERE AND THEN AHH.

~

NOX AURUMQUE

Gold,
Tarnished and dark,
Singing of night,
Singing of death,
Singing itself to sleep.
And an angel dreams of sunrise,
And war.

Tears of the ages.
O shield!
O gilded blade!
You are too heavy to carry,
Too heavy for flight.

Gold,
Tarnished and weary,
Awaken!
Melt from weapon to wing!
Let us soar again,
High above this wall;
Angels reborn and rejoicing with wings made
Of dawn,
Of gold,
Of dream.

Gold,
Singing of wings,
Singing of shadows.

cos only we sing for the joy of singing, and not for anything else.

2009-05-04T20:37:00.006+08:00

GOLD.

ALWAYS REMEMBER THAT WE SING FOR THE JOY OF MUSIC-MAKING; EVERYTHING ELSE PALES IN COMPARISON.

and everytime i listen to ithankyougod, i'll just remember the moments, the subtle and magical moments we had on stage; i will miss this so much. I've got so much memories held within the walls of VCH, in the soundcheckroom, the changingrooms, the smallrooms that had sofas where we played bridge, the seats,

and the stage.

now, everything's coming to an end, and i guess closure won't come easily. in the end, it's really the journey, that i would cherish most in the end. mm, it's really a wake-up call, that honours is not only what we're working for; as toh said, if we didn't mature as individuals and still got our honours without effort, we wouldn't feel happy either.

our journey together matters so much, and this is something that not even central judging can measure. and i would NEVER trade this for anything, ever.

FORGET REGRET, WE'VE DONE OUR BEST.

-
ithankyougodformostthisamazingday.

someday we'll find it/the rainbow connection/the lovers, the dreamers, and me

2009-05-03T20:38:00.003+08:00

The Rainbow Connection

'whoa yeah yeah, i just DIG songs about rainbows!' HAHAHAAHAHA
i love the frog chorus (1:50!) ahh they're so cute please.

i'm real glad i chose this song, it's just so amazing and there's so much to reminesce every time i listen to it, and now there's more meaning to it mm(:

~

jazz concert's over(it was amazing, THANKS FOR THE FLOWERS+FLOWERPLUSHIE+CHOCLATES+SHAHAN/NAT'S PINEAPPLE!^^), and syf's in 2 days time;
slowly, everything's gonna end. I don't know, i just don't like this uncertainty that's looming ahead and i'm just shrouded in a cloud of blur and driftyfloaty ungroundedness.

i really really wanna write notes for all of you, but it's just so hard to get down to writing them. and then again, half the time i wouldn't know what to say because goodbyes are hard like that.

ohwells i'll get down to typing more tomorrow/nostalgia's such a lovely feeling no words can describe what i feel now.
it's terrible when you know that whatever's happening now will be just fade away into memories in no time, no time at all (2 days, 2 days!), and there's nothing you can do to to slow time down, much less keep forever now. oh, how i wish time could just come to a standstill, and everything would stay status quo FOREVER.

it's hard to love you, [insert] all of you, [/insert] ya know?

~

yeah ehh don't be offended or disappointed by her or whatever k, if you're willing to salvage the relationship, i guess you gotta talk to her! IT'LL ONLY GET BETTER OKAY!!!!:DD

6moredaystosyf; i don't want it/us to end

2009-04-29T23:19:00.003+08:00

life's been so crazy, when it resumes everything just becomes so intense/numb i don't know how to feel anymore):

i should just move to empyresque right, since everything can be flocked D:

i guess you're right, we're always one step out of sync, which just makes everything so messed up ><

~

OH, on a really hilarious note that totally made kangjie spit his water back into his bottle when he was drinking during chorale prac,

when pigs fly, swine flu HAHAHAHAHAHHAA KANGJIE I DON'T BELIEVE YOU SPAT WATER OUT JUST BECAUSE OF THIS :DD

~

I DON'T CARE, I LOVE BONADVENTURE HE'S SO CUTE HAHAHAHHHAHAAA i hope he doesn't chance upon this blog though!!! ahh <33333

silver moon's sparkling/so kiss me

2009-04-09T19:24:00.003+08:00

ahhh i love disney princesses!!!!
and omgomg look at 0:50, ARIEL IS SO CUTEEEE AHHHHHH<333

~

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

tenor pride

2009-04-06T23:50:00.003+08:00

mm yeah, i guess i've never really dealt with the root of the problem.
but at least i know now, ya? sorry for whatever that happened just now k, just wasn't in the right frame of mind i guess.

on another note, omg sops sound damn nice clashing! kinda reminds me of accidentals prac when stacey and i just spam dissonanance during break :DD gogogo we can do it!(:

ronde/ct

2009-03-31T21:53:00.003+08:00

III. Ronde

Old women
Go not to the woods of Ormond,
Maidens beware, go not to the woods:
They are full of grim satyres, and of centaurs, of cunning wizards,
Of hobgoblins and of incubus,
Imps and ogres there hide,
Will o’ the wisps and fauns, roguish lamies,
Flying devils, devilkins,
Goat-footed folk and gnomes and demons,
Full of werewolves, elves, tiny myrmidons,
Of enchanters and of magicians,
Stryges and of sylphs, full of outcast monks,
Of cyclops and of djinns, goblins,
Korrigans, necromancers, kobolds...

Old men
Go not to the woods of Ormond,
Younglads beware, go not to the woods:
They are hiding host of fauns, and of bacchantes and of fairy folks,
Of satyresses and ogresses, and of babaïagas,
Of centauresses and of shedevils,
Witches out from their sabbath,
Of she-hobgoblins, of female demons,
Of larves and of nymphs, tiny myrmidons,
Of Hamadryads, and dryads, of naiads, menades, thyades,
Will o’wisps, of lemures, female gnomes, succubus, of gorgons and she-goblins...
Go not to the woods of Ormond.

Maidens and Younglads
We shall no more to the woods go,
Alas, never more shall we go there.
There are no more grim satyres,
And no more nymphs, fairy folk have fled.
Gone the hobgoblins and incubus,
Or ogres, no more imps,
Fauns or will o’ the wisps,
No more furies, flying devil, devilkins, goat-footed folks,
No more gnomes or demons,
No more werewolves, elves, imps and myrmidons,
No enchanters, or magicians, or stryges,
No more sylphs or of outcast monks,
No more cyclops or djinns, little devils, efrits, oegypans,
Or sylvans, goblins, korrigans, necromancers, kobolds...
Go not to the woods of Ormond,
Ill-advised old women, ill-advised old men
Frightened them all away!

D: D: D:

~
things never work out the way things-doers intend them to right):
i should intend something more next time mm

latenightsoutagain

2009-03-29T21:06:00.002+08:00

taxi fares are reaaaally ex if you're gonna travel from one end of the island to the other, especially at night): but i guess it was cheaper this time since there wasn't midnight fare HAHAHAAHHAA :DDD

oh oh chorale prac was super skadjhfksj ytd, omg i really must start mugging my scores i haven't touched them for damn long :/ yeah and the ns guys look really different. i always have their haired versions in my mind, but i when i see them i never fail to go D: D: D: but yeah they're tanner and buffer i guess! take care k, DON'T BEND OVER IN SHOWERS HAHAHAAHAHA

and and i met quan with her mum at orchard(mm another cosmic miracle!) i feel so lucky please, always meeting them everywhere(: yes we haven't caught up, talk tonight okay! :D

omg i just realised i didn't blog about my previous time i travelled all the way back from like changi at like around midnight? anyway i sent my sis off to netherlands and hague/haig (omgsuckfail) and amsterdam and hongkong (it's quite awkward to blog about this when she's like gonna return tmr HAHA but) yeah i hope she took pretty pictures of the lourves and random famous spots that i haven't heard of because i haven't been out of sillypore in ages (I DON'T CARE, ONE DAY THIS YEAR I WILL GO JAPAN I SWEAR.) D: i digress. yeah then we stayed back to mug. mm staying at airport at night is really really nice, just that the trip back seriously sucks:/

but i guess it's all worth it(:

last day of cts + i met gen and i miss herrr

2009-03-27T23:44:00.004+08:00

YAY MY KI PROPOSAL GOT APPROVED WITH NO NEED FOR IMPROVEMENTS AT ALL :DD

but i'm really so screwed because i didn't even manage to utilise the infinite consultations before he returns the proposals): hmph i'll just have to hope that he'll be nice and drop me helplines along the way, or that jarrodlee will be my new best friend and i can infinitely consult him instead!
(oh this means i need to go for jazz more regularly HAHA oops)

anywayy i met gen on friday (by some cosmic miracle, as she puts it!) and we talked about alotalot of stuff yay(: yesyes we will be proficient in wingdings and send each other secret coded letters that nobody can ever decipher!! :DD

OH YES BEFORE I FORGET, IT WAS THE LAST DAY OF CTS AND I'VE NEVER MUGGED SO FREAKING HARD FOR ANYTHING IN MY LIFE (OKAY MAYBE PSLE HAHA BUT THAT WAS LIKE, WHATEVER.) YES AND IT HELPED THAT MY COMPUTER WAS SCREWED SO I COULDN'T PLAY ANYTHING MM(:

i want to go into LV one day! ^^

vexix;thankyou<3

2009-03-14T01:20:00.004+08:00

i love the feeling of post-concert, when everything feels vaguely surreal and it feels so fleeting, knowing that it'll all be over once you go to sleep, but yet you still have to go on with your life.

and it's our last concert, i think it'd be a long time (maybe never?) before i actually feel like this again. i ~~guess~~ know i'll miss this, really. it's really undescribable, and i always hate it when i use that as an excuse for me being unable to find good word choices): but at this point in time i guess i'm feeling quite light-headed and high, so uhmmm abit incoherent and not very intellectual either haha :/

i love the feeling of rushing for preparations for concert, staying back late in school for pracs even though it tires the hell out of you, reading scores in the middle of the night/lectures(HAHA OOPS), PERFORMING, running around to get changed asap, being freaking nervous about our small group songs but everything working out in the end, oh, just everything in general, i love performing with people i love.

[edit]
YES FIONALEE THIS IS THE FIRST EVER CONCERT WE'VE PERFORMED TOGETHER IN, LIKE FINALLY RIGHT MM :D
[/edit]

and 3 batches were present this time, i guess it gave me some sense of wycf-ness all over again (btw i missed luxwadeificanhelp). i'm a realy really really lucky boy, being close to alot alot of people around me, mm :D

TODAY I GOT MANYMANY HUGS YAY HAHAHHAHAAA
i would list them all down, but it's so shameless and disgusting, so i'll just keep it in a private post HAHA XD but yeah i love them mmm yepyeps
i think things are getting better, hhahahhaa i guess now it doesn't feel so awkward anymore(:

btw imo taiboon is SOO hot. <3

~

k says:
vexix sounds like an org XIII member
a TENORTWO -`Çhanky; says:
lol sounds like right!
a TENORTWO -`Çhanky; says:
vexen + saix or sth

omgomg i miss playing kh2, ahh; i miss alot of stuff, and i guess the concert's just gonna add to these memories. hahhahaaa i don't even know how i should feel right now):

~

k says:
like Re(z ) = Im(z )
k says:
but x =/= iy
a TENORTWO -`Çhanky; says:
okay
a TENORTWO -`Çhanky; says:
srsly
a TENORTWO -`Çhanky; says:
freakyou now
k says:
lol if got unimaginable axis it'll be 3d alr
k says:
Re and Im and Un
a TENORTWO -`Çhanky; says:
ARGH
a TENORTWO -`Çhanky; says:
you damn obsessed with unimaginable you
a TENORTWO -`Çhanky; says:
but ya the song nice
k says:
x+iy+uz
k says:
imaginary i and unimaginable u
k says:
yay

wtf i haven't mugged yet, but i think complex numbers > 14B D: D: D:

~

presenting to you,
some freaking random song i found because i didn't want the night to end (i still don't, but my eyes really can't take it anymore T_T)

i really don't know why i wanted to post this vid, but yeah i like the chord prog for the chorus (which is like the same as autumn leaves HAHA) :D

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YAY OKAY I WILL EDIT THIS POST, I JUST HAD TO TYPE IN ALL THIS PSYCHOBABBLE GIBBERISH TO LEAVE SOME VAGUE TRACE OF MY THOUGHTS KTHXBYE :DDDDD

the baffled king composing, hallelujah(:

2009-03-11T22:49:00.006+08:00

YAY TOH SAID MY SOLO WAS NICE HAHA I'M DAMN HIGH NOW LIKE SOME LITTLE KID :DD
~~(and sometimes i also wonder why i want his praise so badly, but yaa whatever :/ )~~
and i really loved the sound todayy, and dieu really sounds quite nice, but obviously i still prefer ithankyougod(:

omgomg i never post vids for vehh long i think,
so mm, presenting 2 damnn nice songs today!

billie jean (some superawesome rock arrangement <3)
by david cook (and i think he sounds damn man and nice AHH!!)

&

hallelujah
by jeff buckley

it's a cold and it's a broken
hallelujah

<3

hey you, even though i don't think you'll read this blog haha, don't emo okay i think you sound fine laaa; it's just some tone issues here and there, but it's really okay, DON'T STRESS GOGOGO :DD

CONCERT'S IN JUST 2 DAYS WE CAN DO IT(:

i detest being sick :/

2009-03-04T17:42:00.005+08:00

i really really hate being sick ):
especially when you just get your voice back only to fall even more sick and cough like some old man with chronic coughing disease D: ohnoes maybe God really hates me, in so, so many other ways that i can never divulge.

i think God's just a human construct so that the chore of shifting blame gets so much simpler;
'ohh me ohh my, woe is me, why hath thou forsaken me?'
yeah, go ahead and fault higher orders for your own misery.
(which is what i'm doing, essentially D:)
& because people are such jerks like that, in the same light, i think humans are God's constructs that failed, really really horribly.
The way humans construct God and mould them to fit in the flaws in their lives seem so disgusting, i wish God would just come here already (this is obviously assuming that the real God is nowhere near convenient/loose/shiftblame-friendly as what we make Him out to be).

~~but i guess coughing isn't all too bad, it can't make my chest feel any worse than it already does.~~

omgomgomg today was amazing i finished 3 whole physics tutorials!!! I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF YAY :DD

~

eh fried take care k, i know you'll be alright in there (: i hope your friedesiblinggs don't miss you too badly, and that your friedefamilyy will be just fine, mm. ^^

eecummings<3/bday):

2009-03-03T22:13:00.009+08:00

i thank you God for most this amazing

i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
wich is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's ~~birthday~~;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings: and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any-lifted from the no
of all nothing-human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

- e.e. cummings

omgvexixsoldout D: D: D:

2009-03-01T20:35:00.003+08:00

I'M SORRY WE'RE ALL SOLD OUT (EVEN BEFORE OUR ANNOUCEMENTS/POSTERS/ETCETC.)
D: D: D:
how cool is that, it's like the first time this ever happened! :D
(and we haven't started small group prac ohnoes HAHA)

~

okay wth just stop it alright i'm already trying to be as normal as possible i just went offline without saying bye (which i really do quite often what) so stop being emo and saying that we're not friends anymore =.=

musicfeste perf!

2009-02-27T22:44:00.003+08:00

today is was really amazing i'm so super grateful for guanyishuyifandennis(SEXBOMBS HAHA)danieljoel for singing with us i think they're just amazing and wonderful juniors and i hope they don't read this or their ego will just swell up like erm. blown balloons. :D
YES STAND BY ME WAS QUITE NICE EVEN THOUGH WE TOTALLY IMPROMPTU-ED IT I THINK THE INTRO IS SUPER COOL AND SUPER AMAZINGGG AHHH GUAN YOU ROCK (:
i guess it's really sad when our small group is just, 5 people? there's barely enough for harmonies la D: but we still managed to pull off i'm a believer! (even though av screwedup bigtime pfft) (: i guess it's really comforting when there are people shouting your name as you perform, makes the stage a more human place; makes it more real and close to your heart mm.

YOU. even though you probably haven't found my blog (HAHA) cheer up k life isn't ALL that bad :DD

houyes and some shameless advertising for vexix :D

2009-02-26T22:11:00.015+08:00

PRESENTING, RAFFLES CHORALE IN:

VOCAL EXPLOITS XIX
featuring PUNCH+FRINGE+BEATS+Accidentals!

FRIDAY, 13 March 2009 (LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!)
7:30 p.m.
RJC LT1

TICKETS ARE PRICED AT $5 EACH
PLEASE APPROACH ANYONE FROM CHORALE (MEMEME!) FOR THEM OKAY :DD

st nicks yay ms lim yay cute girls HAHA

2009-02-26T21:45:00.002+08:00

HAHAHAHA I WENT TO ST NICKS TODAY WITH JEAN KAILE LOU YIFAN AND I THINK THE CAMPUS IS REALLY QUITE NICE AND QUIET(: BUT ORANGEBOWL ISN'T THAT AMAZINGLY NICE WHOOPS :/ OHH THE SCENERY IS NICE TOO (HAHAHAHAA KAILE READ: SONIA). I THINK MS LIM COULD BE QUITE A WONDERFUL CONDUCTOR, I THINK SHE'S COOL AND NICE AND SOMEHOW SHE HAS TOH-MANNERISMS, MAYBE IT'S A CONDUCTOR THING D: OHOH AND THE JUNIORS THERE ARE SUPER ADORABLE;

TODAY WAS A NICE DAY :DD
mm i guess change can be good sometimes; makes you cherish, stuff. (:

BEHAPPYNOWIDON'TCAREHOWYOUDOITJUSTBE.

2009-02-25T23:21:00.004+08:00

Dear Jorel,

Being utterly Unhappy about all the uncontrollable events that are occuring all around your life is obviously just making your circumstances more miserable, probably much more than reality makes it out to be (even though THEY just happened AGAIN, like a few minutes ago).

So, from the kindness of my soul, I sincerely beseech you to SNAP OUT OF THIS and REVERT BACK to whatever retarded/whiney/girly/~~shallow~~ self you originally were, before your emotional streaks of Angst and Annoyance and started streaming in. I preferred you that way (and i guess other people did as well). It's nice and cognitive to introspect sporadically, but when emotions get involved (and this usually means people get involved as well), you'll know that it's time to move on.

Apathy's the way to go,
(well just for now).

Yours schizophrenically,
Kwoks.

P.S. and no, this isn't because it's THAT TIME OF THE MONTH eww. D: D: D:
P.P.S. 'I guess we'll have to be confident that everything will work out fine.'

blazer nightmare D:

2009-02-23T22:31:00.002+08:00

last night i dreamt that i didn't have a blazer to wear for concert so i couldn't perform, and i was so scared because it would mean i'd never have a chance to perform for chorale. and we were performing at like some dark esplanade-esque place but the seats were super high, as in the angle of elevation was really high so it was almost like a wall. the floor was carpeted and dark blue and i was just panicking and finding a blazer just before the concert began (yeah, the pre-concert lasted for like 4 hours). i'm so unsure of what happened in the end, but i woke up at around 4am and wrote a note in my phone, 'Get blazer for perf!!! Before it's too late.'

i guess it's really just not blazers; alot of things should/shouldn't be done before it's too late,
but then again, forget regret.

(i choose to blame the antihistamines i've been taking for my quite sacrifying nightmare T_T)

lostvoice/foundsound

2009-02-21T20:24:00.005+08:00

omgomg i've totally lost my voice already it sound super manly, but i want my voice backkk i can only sing lowlow F to low E T_T AND THERE IS NO MORE FALSETTO AT ALL OMG GRAWRARHGHRHGH D:

Despite this really really unfortunate incident (which was probably caused by stupid late-night calls, HMM), I loved today's prac more than any other prac I've ever had, even in RV.

When you're singing, you end up being so conscious about how you sound: whether you're on pitch, if your tone is tall enough/ringing/blending etc, and sometimes you'll hear your sectionmates and hear the sound of your section. It becomes overtly technical; you're undoubtedly trying to produce good music, but you're not appreciating it ):

Being sick seriously rocks, especially when you get to sit behind and listen to an amazing choir produce really really beautiful sounds. I knew I Thank You's a really nice song, but i never really felt like catharsis from it before today D:

omg i give up trying to type properly/coherently

i thank you is really damn nice i got goosebumps for the whole duration that toh went through the song (which was like half hour ++)! IT IS REALLY AMAZING, i never knew chords could be so wonderful. (omg i think i'm sounding like some choralegeekbutlikewhateverrr) hahahaha i got abit crazy during i thank you that i started drawing hearts at the chords that i liked (this kinda means my whole score's full of hearts gahh) i ESPECIALLY LIKE THE SOTTOVOCE PART (sounds like bohemian rhapsody but maybe i'm just abit insane now haha) AND THE UNIMAGINABLEYOUS AND THE OPENEDS AND OFTHEGAYGREATTHINGS(MALE VOICE PART AHH) AND WI-I-INGS AND NOWTHEEARS AND INFINITE AND OMGOMG ALL 3 OF LOUISA'S SOLOES AHHH THE INFINITE AND THE ITHANKYOUGOD AND THE UNIMAGINABLEYOU HER VOICE IS SO NICE IT SPARKLES ABOVE THE WHOLE CHOIR'S (AND I HOPE SHE DOESN'T READ THIS HAHA OMG SO MALU EVEN IF YOU READ THIS DON'T TELL ME YOU DID OKAY);

I THANK YOU GOD FOR MOST THIS AMAZING SONG <3 i thought lux was already amazing, but this is freaking imbaaa whitacre's some genius to come up with all these chords that seem to all fall into the place of the song sooo well.

ohh and this like swelling of emotions spilled over to with a little help also (omg i don't know why, i didn't really like the song xD) IAN'S VOICE IS SO NICE i think he should always be a soloist for any pop song(: i still had goosebumps during with a little help la D: D: D: my sparse armhairs(or furs) were like perma-standing, and it wasn't because of the aircon because i was wearing jacket tooo loh! (oh and i think wearing a jacket+ri pe shorts should be considered the most IN fashion HAHA) ya and i could vaguely tell that we were out of tune already, and i think it's amazing how toh, in the so much more musically pleasing position of being in front of the choir, is able to just focus on the technical aspects of it and not be so overwhelmed by the sound. hahahhaaa omg fionamich i guess i finally know why you all fangirl choirsounds so much xDD

mmm part of me wishes to like remain sick and sit at the back and listen to the sound forever, but the magic will probably fade away with familiarity of it:/ BUT i want to get well asap so i can sing tooo! i hope i can love the sound as much as when i just sit behind. I WILL WORK HARD TO PWNZZ MY PITCHING/TONE/SINGING (:

ohh and josephgeofroyce came back to visit yay they're amazing and they look more buff lol but still damn faggy omg D: hahahaa alot of things i really would type here, but it'll be so repetitive and just for me to read, but i already know it in my heart so it's okay :D TAKE CARE IN NS DON'T GET SODOMISED/RAPED/~~ASSRAPED~~(OOPS THAT'S SODOMISED RIGHT) (:

and i think toh bought a new poloshirt i've never seen him wear orange/striped/striped orange poloshirt hahahhaa why do i observe these kind of stuff i never use too loh D:

ohh jean go try harder and sell more tickets to SOME PEOPLE k!!! :D
i wanna go stnicks louuu let me! ): ): ):

OKAY THIS POST SHOULD END SOON
LIKE NOW
IT'S DAMN LONG ALREADY
(:

choralecamp + 'not knowing which is worse: feeling like I will never get over you, or knowing i will.'

2009-02-15T16:38:00.008+08:00

yay i think camp was really wonderful in the end despite like the little hiccups here and there(: and j1s are really amazinggg, even more so after knowing all those who just joined; they're just so nice.

GROUP 3 (TOTOCHAN/TOFU/TOUTONG) PWNZZ
vivien linan huiyi (pfft you lousy only come for a while!) dennis fionalee samantha anastasia kahbian!!! (Y)

i loved it most when kelson nwei died from toh-berculosis. <3

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i shall wait for people to upload pics on facebook before koping them and dumping them on this post (argh i always say this but i never really get about doing it in the end, I WILL DO IT THIS TIME :DD)

omgomg toh found out that my waistsize is 24! D: (i bet he's jealous too HAHA)
actually makes me wonder what else he knows as well. ><

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thankyou fionalee for being there when i was like at my worst emotional state (:
and you dettolgirl for staying with me for quite long until we got owned by the security guard (again) oops D:

i hate it when words lack the ability to convey what you really wanna say. :/

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HAHAHHAHAHA OMG VIC AND JEAN HAVE THE SAME CHINESE NAMEEE! :DD

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thank you so much, you take care k (:

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i should stop using squiggly signs to paragraph my posts, it really doesn't help me organise my thoughts especially if i really need to write essays D: D: D:

feeling good

2009-02-10T22:54:00.005+08:00

omg i didn't know i sang like a drunkard, it's probably because i totally just woke up backstage before my perf :/ anyway it fits the song since they're like druggies D:

but anyway more importantly OMG THANKS FOR SHOUTING SO MANY TIMES/SO LOUDLY/SO MANY NAMES JORELKWOKSPONYO WTF (Y)

and thankyou mich for your letter+lily! :DD

here's feeling good by muse
enjoy.

lol at 1:34!!! xD

emoemoemo+ihidestuffwell

2009-02-04T20:19:00.008+08:00

a really important post to just signpost my life up till now

i realise my posts nowadays are less narrative/contentful and i don't like it, because it means i'm actually thinking when i'm blogging now.
(as usual i shall use squiggles again, because my paragraphing sucks and squiggles helps to jump from one idea to the other)

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i don't like it when feelings are super mixed (tired but, energetic? D:) and you just made it worse, especially when i just opened my gmail to send my ki proposal (because hotmail, just, sucks.) and i saw your email from quite long ago (i think i would never have seen it if i didn't have to do my ki oops). i feel like i'm cheating, and i feel so cheated, but i guess that's how you feel too.

but life goes on, what are we gonna do mm?

~

YOU. it's only been a very short while, but we're in such a messed up state, and it's hard to believe/forget what happened at the start of the week. i'm quite glad whatever happened, but it just leads to so many complications that i really can't grasp. moreover, you're so busy with your life now, and i'm so busy with mine (actually i'm quite free now because i FINALLY FINISHED MY DAMNED KI PROPOSAL, AND YOU REALISE THE KI PROPOSAL IS A RECURRING MOTIF IN THIS WHOLE POST TODAY GRAWR, but i digress.) so it feels like we're drifting apart like uh nobody's business since our relationship's so hasty, omg okay whatever. yeah i miss (talking to) you, but we're (everybody around me too) moving so fast i can barely catch up with you (or myself, for that matter).

rawrr i guess we'll just hover for now.

~

i really wish you'd take care of yourself and not do such ridiculous things and make me worried and angry and always escape from the things you hate to talk about but are important to sort out or else your life will just be like that and even though you enjoy it i just don't want you to pursue this kind of life. it's wrong of me to impose whatever standards/howtoliveyourlife on you, but i guess it's because i just wanna care. today you made me quite asdfghjkl but i bet you don't know why. okay i guess it's not just you, just the accretion of too much rubbish going on in my life, that just refuses to fade away.

maybe you're right; if we try vv hard enough, we could actually wish memories away.

~

it's amazing how all the 'you's in the different squiggle segments refer to different people.

my life wins, seriously.

~

since we're on the topic of EMO, yay yay got new emo song go listen k. :DD

Ash Like Snow
by Brilliant Green

sora akaku someru kokutan no yami
nomikomareta hoshikuzu-tachi
hakanaku furitsumoru hai no yuki

The sky is dyed red by the ebony darkness,
And the distant stardust swallowed up,
In this transient moment as the snowing ashes fall.

mitsumeta nageki no mado
I never dreamed
kooritsuku
there... I come for you

I watched it through the window of grief.
I never dreamed
I stand frozen.
there... I come for you.

omoi wa sekibaku no yozora ni
maiagari kudaketa
kono sekai ga katachi wo kaeru tabi ni
mamoritai mono wo
kowashite shimatteitan da

My hopes were alone in the desolate night sky,
They soared high until they were crushed.
Each time the world changes shape,
The things I want to protect,
I end up breaking them.

kokoro ni hishimeku haitoku no yami
kimi no koe ga masui no youni
tsumetaku kankaku wo ubatteku

Oh, the sinful darkness tugging at my heartstrings,
Your voice is like anaesthesia,
Coldly, it robs me of my senses.

mujun wo oikakete mo
owaranai
naze boku wa tatakau no?

No matter how we pursue our differences,
It never ends.
Why do I have to fight?

tatoeba hikari ga kieusete
kono hoshi ga ochite mo
wasurenai yo
sono chiisana negai ga
aru beki basho eto michibiku

Even if the light is extinguished,
Even if this earth disintegrates,
I won't ever forget:
That tiny wish,
It will guide us to our ideal place.

there I come for you yeah
Ash Like Snow
is falling down from your sky
Ash Like Snow
Let me hear...
why I have to fight?

there I come for you yeah
Ash Like Snow
is falling down from your sky
Ash Like Snow
Let me hear...
why I have to fight?

kono omoi wa sekibaku no yozora ni
maiagari kudaketa
yami wo hiraku eikou to hikikae ni
mamoru beki mono wo ushinatte kita
(It's falling from your sky)
munashisugiru
(Baby I come for you)

My hopes were alone in the desolate night sky,
They soared high until they were crushed.
In exchange for glory that triumphs over darkness,
I have given up many things I sought to protect.
(It's falling from your sky)
This is too futile.
(Baby I come for you)

kudakechitta kakera ni kizutsuku tabi
tozasareta boku no kokoro wa
tsuyoku naru koto wo erande
koko made kitan da

Every time the scattered broken pieces cut me,
Deep down in my closed heart,
I choose to grow stronger.
And I came this far.

omgflathair

2009-02-03T23:55:00.002+08:00

HAHAHHAHAHAA i know how to get rid of my horn already!!! :DD
but i guess i'll miss it. like how i'll miss alot alot of other things, miss them terribly, even though life beckons me to forget. omgomgomg if i get pissed with my flathair i could probably make it all stand up again, but i guess this
re-asdf-able
nature of things does't neccessarily apply to everything in my life.

i got myself out of one trouble, and now i'm in another one, but i don't think it's as deep. but oh well there's another even deeper screwy abyss of dunnoworrysomethingum that i can't say because it sounds too soapoperatic nonsense to be treated as how people would treat it in real life and not in drama serials :/

okay whatever if i'm typing such long run-on lines i probably should be sleeping soon.

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I THINK WHEN THE SECURITY GUARD OWNED US IT WAS PRETTY FUNNY (:
but take care ya i hope you get a good sleep.

:D

i bought gen's berms i bet my mum thinks i'm gay

2009-02-01T14:41:00.004+08:00

YAY OMG OMG I GOT NEW PANTS GEN YOU ROCK :D i think it's damn ~~pretty~~ good-looking! (: when i am free i shall post the pic (or should i? :/)
i think i wanna buy moreeee like the black or the green polo!!! :DD

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argh i wanted to type something but my memories fail me grawr (blame ki too zzz)

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HAHAHAHA I REMEMBER NOWW GEN I TELL YOU OKAY M DIDN'T COME, A'S HERE AND J MANAGED TO COME TOO YAY HAPPY!! :DD
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omg su-ann is super funny with all her retarded pickup lines i wish she would come visit vict more often HAHA (:

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yay j3s came back yesterday i hope more come back next i miss them all D:

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j1s have fun at orientation tmr okay! (:

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aiyah even vincom2 thinks you're being emo stop emo-ing okay.

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i love separating my thoughts using squiggly lines. <3

kiis wreck

2009-01-24T00:26:00.002+08:00

argh today sucked i feel like some academic wreck; so messed up, i wish my research materials would just poofs appear in front of me and i'll be able to structure a NON-GP and relevant and coherent and sound essay.

i'm gonna cry already (okay not really, i just feel quite miserable.)
i hope i'll get used to this + every single piece of jkahsdf that's gonna come with this.

I WILL PERSERVERE GRAARARARAGRHARGHHH!!!!

italkedtomyratoday!

2009-01-20T22:12:00.002+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG I TALKED TO HER TODAY HAHAHAHAHAHA

openhouse

2009-01-14T22:44:00.004+08:00

today was openhouse and i think yishu has a daaamn imba male voice omg D:

[edit]
OMG MUST REMOVE FANBOYING STUFF BECAUSE SHE MIGHT COME OMGOMGOMG
[/edit]

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i v v sleepy now, thankyou fionalee for talking to me (or rather listening to me say nothing oops)!

goodnight, world. I'd like to think I'd wake up in another universe.
(ccpls.)

dying inside to hold you

2009-01-13T21:47:00.003+08:00

YAY ANOTHER MY-LIFE-IS-COMPLETE SONG! okay this seems to be like the highlight of my posts and it's always the posts that i reread more often (:

but i guess today's one is really quite apt.
haha i really hope i won't forget la, since i probably won't blog about it here D:

k presenting,
dying inside to hold you by timmy thomas!
please enjoy (:

hahhahahaa i like this user, because he likes final fantasy!
omg i miss final fantasy, i barely finished jit's ff8 argh okay AFTER ALVLS i really must hardcore (if he still lends me until then ><)

and argh i've been wanting to find this song i love it whenever i find songs i've always wanted to find, youtube rocks :D

all-nighter (:

2009-01-12T21:01:00.007+08:00

gahhhh i think i'm finally less delirious (more sane to actually blog) after our retarded all-nighter, you suck lehh (:

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i think firstdayofschool was really not as screwed as i would've expected it to be, except that i found out ~~alot~~ ALOT of homework that's due omg time to hardcore!

ohh btw i think slau rocks, seriously. (Y)

and i am superhappy i managed to mug (more than i ever did in my whole hols D: ) after school with vickaile and bobo omg we need smarter people around!!!

BTW VIC BONJELA DOESN'T WORK, IT JUST TASTES ABIT NICE (even though it's not supposed too xD)

and today i had beef for dinner mm yummy i can't wait to eat more normal food yay! :DDD

rushrush:
kiis proposal
math all even qns
chem organic tut
physics papers (optional, low priority! ^^)
read econs notes

OH and today was height&weight yay i'm like officially 168cm (because i tiptoed HAHA i'm just one cm shorter than thomasang xD) and 49kg (this one didn't cheat omg i wish i'm heavier! D: )

i hope i actually grow this year, or else i'll have to continue tiptoeing for subsequent height&weights, if not it'll be suspicious if i suddenly shrank 3 cm ):

the day jorel got braces

2009-01-07T21:45:00.008+08:00

yay got whitepink braces!

(i realise recent posts have been very short, but i don't feel like typing alot now sajkdhfkjhdjkhasf)

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OMG DAMN PAINFUL I HATE BRACES (k not really because i think it's damn cool to get to choose the colours on your teeth yay) AND ULCERS OMG VIC GIVE ME THE BONJELA THINGAMAJIG QUICK!!! T_T

*btw singing for both CHORALE and JAZZ doesn't help minimize ~~labial~~ mouth movement =.=

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ponyo-ed

2009-01-06T23:51:00.000+08:00

yay i watched ponyo today i think hayao miyazaki is some intricate detailed genius (:

A verse to begin the new year

2009-01-01T23:39:00.000+08:00

2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all things have become new.

2008/2009

2009-01-01T21:53:00.004+08:00

i've just woken up from like some 11-hour sleep (with random awakenings due to hunger T_T) and i still feel mildly lightheaded/delirious >_>

ANYWAY lastday08/firstday09 was like super hectic;

neesoon jazz countdown gig was quite (Y) even though the 4500 people in the audience was quite sianzz and stone (omg seriously that's quite pro for that many people) but OMG WE APPEARED ON CHINESE NEWS HAHAA ^^
(well not like anyone watches chinese anyway =.=)

oh so after gig i went off to meet geof fried linan guan yishu dennis to play pool at yishun safra but the pool tables were all booked, and there was some fat guy lanning maple, fighting slimes in the kerning subway (omg i still remember gahh) by himself at night :/

so we left safra and went to some random playground and played blindmice for like quite long, hahahaa i think guan is damn pro xDD so after getting damn sweaty we went dennis' house and played cards and celebrated new year and drank sparkling ribena yay OH AND I LEARNED HOW TO PLAY MAHJONG HAHA (: but i had to leave around 1am and i took a cab downstairs, and the cab was playing death cab (I WILL FOLLOW YOU INTO THE DARK) on class 95 oh quite nice but i fell asleep so ya.

so i reached cck and met church people and we ate and waited for bus and went central to meet teresa+seb and continued to loyang and walked 5km to changi village and there were fat trannies and skinny trannies walking around and alot of malays at the beach camping to see the sunrise too i guess. so we just found ourselves a bench and they all started taking pics but i fell asleep for like 2 hours so i missed the sunrise =.= but they said it was cloudy and it just looked like the sky merely become brighter so ya it's okay. (:

then we went to nomnom breakfast and i took cab with seb home and came home showered and spamsleeped. ya k i'm totally woozy and i think i should just clear my room abit and go back to sleep =.=

blessed new year everyone

God

2008-12-31T13:43:00.002+08:00

This deserves a post on it's own, so I'm not gonna cram it together with the ponyo-fanboying/narrative run-on lines post below.

God has blessed me with so many wonderful people; for this I'm really really thankful.

(:

ponyoponyo! & joshkevinshahannat came my house & neesoon jazz countdown gig

2008-12-30T22:20:00.005+08:00

PONYO PONYO HAHAHAHHAHAA (:

歌詞
　　
ポーニョポーニョポニョさかなの子
青い海からやってきた
ポーニョポーニョポニョふくらんだ
まんまるおなかの女の子

ペータペタピョーンピョン
足っていいなかけちゃお!
ニーギニギブーンブン
おててはいいなつないじゃお!

あの子とはねると心もおどるよ
パークパクチュッギュッ! パークパクチュッギュッ!
あの子が大好きまっかっかの

ポーニョポーニョポニョさかなの子
青い海からやってきた
ポーニョポーニョポニョふくらんだ
まんまるおなかの女の子

フークフクいいにおい
おなかがすいた食べちゃお!
よーくよく見てみよう
あの子もきっと見ている

いっしょに笑うとホッペがあついよ
ワークワクチュッギュッ! ワークワクチュッギュッ!
あの子が大好きまっかっかの

ポーニョポーニョポニョさかなの子
崖の上にやってきた
ポーニョポーニョポニョ女の子
まんまるおなかの元気な子

hahahhaa i shall try to decipher all of the lyrics...soon. :/

oh another note,
ponyo ponyo ponyo sakana no ko!! HAHHAHAARRGHH
and i still haven't watched the ad on tv yet D:

0:27 (:

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omg before i forget/the year ends (omgomg only 11hours more to go!! D: ), thankyou for all the christmas cards (yaa i couldn't say earlier because i was still receiving them AFTER christmas HMMM =.=)vic,ruiling,vivien,cheryl,louis,kaile,karen,fiona,mich (:

OH AND LISA FOR THE PRETTY WRAPPED UP CHOCOLATE FLOWER THINGUM THAT'S STILL IN MY BAG HAHA :DD

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i forgot to blog about joshkevinshahannat coming to my house but nevermind kevin blog about it alr so i damn sian dowan lol but josh was the most punctual and then we played piano and we went to fetch kevinshahan at lotone food court and we went to arcade and shahan started staring at (insert letter quite far down in the alphabet) cup girls playing ddr so we had to drag him away and we started watching random people play games and there was some guy who was owning at some game and was already fighting final boss but the boss had 3 forms and he died at the last one omg damn jacked so he was quite pissed and just walked away aww okay then nat called me and said he was at guardhouse so we all went back to fetch him and we went up and played piano again and guitar and went to try restringing my guitar's d string using a g string so we had to make the string damn tight and i had to bring my pliers and when it almost reached the d pitch the string snapped wth luckily (for me lol) kevin got hit i think kevin gets owned everytime we go out (read: ice skating stitches) ya so we let shahan listen to josephine's shop and dled+played lf2 and also watched rachmaninov had big hands and other vids on youtube so when we got bored we watched the nightmare before christmas that kevin brought and it was v v nice i think tim burton is some (Y) ya so anyway when the show ended we played more lf2 and this time we got 3 players and now my keyboard can't work if you press more than like 3 buttons at once wth stickykeys forthelose, must be gunz too last time i guess anyway ya run-on lines ftw argh i just kinda blogged the whole thing zzz

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k today's gonna be jazz neesoon countdown gig and like pmlee's gonna be there zzz he damn tall omg k actually i seriously wonder why he wouldn't wanna go to the siloso beach one/marine parade one i think it's more happening there, like compared to performance in the middle of a random field just beside khatib mrt. okay whatever it's his choice i guess, and he probably like hdb flats more than mediacorp stars (okay i hope nobody stalks this post/ i don't get owned i'm just SUGGESTING HIS PREFERENCE D:) ya okay this ends here i hope he has a fun time there, and i hope we do too (:

puff the magic dragon

2008-12-27T20:59:00.006+08:00

Puff the magic dragon

The song is believed by many (including one Jonathan Russell) to refer to smoking marijuana, due to references to paper, dragon ("draggin'"), puff (smoke), traveling "along the cherry lane" (the burning ember of a cigarette or joint is called a cherry, and moves up the cigarette's length as it burns), and Hanalei (Honahlee) is a town in Hawaii known for marijuana use. This theory led to the song becoming a hippie anthem. The authors of the song have repeatedly and vehemently denied any intentional drug reference.[4] Peter Yarrow himself insists that "Puff" is about the hardships of growing older, not drugs.[5] He has also said of the song that it "never had any meaning other than the obvious one".[6]

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Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called honah lee,
Little jackie paper loved that rascal puff,
And brought him strings and sealing wax and other fancy stuff. oh

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called honah lee.

Together they would travel on a boat with billowed sail
Jackie kept a lookout perched on puffs gigantic tail,
Noble kings and princes would bow wheneer they came,
Pirate ships would lower their flag when puff roared out his name. (hi i'm paul HAHA)

Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lived by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called honah lee.

A dragon lives forever but not so little boys
Painted wings and giant rings make way for other toys.
One grey night it happened, jackie paper came no more
And puff that mighty dragon, he ceased his fearless roar.

His head was bent in sorrow, green scales fell like rain,
Puff no longer went to play along the cherry lane.
Without his life-long friend, puff could not be brave,
So puff that mighty dragon sadly slipped into his cave. oh!

Puff, the magic dragon lives by the sea (present tense!)
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called honah lee,
Puff, the magic dragon lives by the sea
And frolicked in the autumn mist in a land called honah lee.

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Children's Song
by R.S. Thomas

We live in our own world,
A world that is too small
For you to stoop and enter
Even on hands and knees,
The adult subterfuge.
And though you probe and pry
With analytic eye,
And eavesdrop all our talk
With an amused look,
You cannot find the centre
Where we dance, where we play,
Where life is still asleep
Under the closed flower,
Under the smooth shell
Of eggs in the cupped nest
That mock the faded blue
Of your remoter heaven.

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Ben's right. We're all growing up old. ):

eve caroling

2008-12-24T23:18:00.002+08:00

i'm so glad we're caroling together (:

it's so amazinggg i think i can actually miss the j2s less (even though i'll still <3 them lots! :D) and our caroling batch today is seriously superduper; cheryl louisa lisa isa vic kaile karen vivien chunling bryan yisheng linan lionel louis!!!

RAFFLES CONCERT SINGERS <33

ehh ya okay today we went intercontinental hotel @ bugis, the chandeliers are pretty and the ceiling is quite nice yay we're gonna go there tmr to carol again i must take pics of the place tmr! D: then after that we RUUUSHED TO MRT TO GO ORCHARD TO GO PARK HOTEL!!! omg lionel is DAAMN good a clearing the path XDD and running along streets, esp orchard road (OMG =.=) wearing blazers and gowns is a really BAD idea we were all drenched in sweat and rainwater omg T_T anyway but we reached parkhotel in time and the room they gave us was really big and nice :D but the place they gave us to perform was quite uhh weird, since we were performing facing the entrance of the hotel, and there weren't alot of people walking/watching us, but most of our audience (who clapped HAHA) were like behind us loh xD anyway we had ALOTALOT of fun i love caroling (:

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GET WELL SOON OKAY ISA OMG I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD BE ANGRY OR SAD!!! ><

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BLESSED CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! :DD

catcatcat+rachyy xD <3

2008-12-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

OMG CATTT AHHH (YES STILL!) <33333

and today i watched our wycf vids omg we're so amazing and TOH'S CONDUCTING IS SO AMAZING i wish i realised and took notice muchmuchearlier! D:

http://drop.io/raffleschorale_WYCF1
http://drop.io/raffleschorale_WYCF2

lazytolink ctrl+c ctrl+v into url kthx (:

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and kevinwhyyounevercomeonlinezzz bye

j2 caroling esplanade

2008-12-21T01:46:00.003+08:00

omg vivien's house looks (and smells) super nice omg it's like 3 floors + basement and omg she has a lift inside!! D: ahhh it's superduperly nice!! i can't wait for like all of the furniture to go in then it'll look damn homely loh!

okay so we had caroling at bishan park which was quite sian because the crowd weren't really interested in us anyway haha but anyway after caroling we went back to vivien's house (AHH OMG!) and we discussed next yr chorale camp stuff haha so interesting (:

ya then we went to meet val and watch j2s carol i think they're really damn amazing and like serious and committed to caroling + they have so much more people like twice the number of j1 carolers jhfakjsdhfkjsajkashdf!

AND CAT'S VOICE IS DAMN SEXYYYY!!! <333
YA IT'S REALLY DAMN NIIIICE PLEASE GO WATCH TMR K AT ESPLANADE CONCOURSE!

yaa okay and today i hugged alot alot of people i think kialiang actly v nice to hug omg D: (i don't believe i just said that omg!) ya and alot of other people too la ya deb i will miss you alotalot too ):

ohh and rachyy is super short and cute omg and i totally look better than her please! (:

OKAY OMG FINALLY FINISHED CAMP PROPOSAL i go sleep now gdnites

little matchstick girl story

2008-12-19T18:48:00.005+08:00

Little Match Girl by Hans Christian Andersen

It was terribly cold and nearly dark on the last evening of the old year, and the snow was falling fast. In the cold and the darkness, a poor little girl, with bare head and naked feet, roamed through the streets. It is true she had on a pair of slippers when she left home, but they were not of much use. They were very large, so large, indeed, that they had belonged to her mother, and the poor little creature had lost them in running across the street to avoid two carriages that were rolling along at a terrible rate. One of the slippers she could not find, and a boy seized upon the other and ran away with it, saying that he could use it as a cradle, when he had children of his own. So the little girl went on with her little naked feet, which were quite red and blue with the cold. In an old apron she carried a number of matches, and had a bundle of them in her hands. No one had bought anything of her the whole day, nor had anyone given her even a penny. Shivering with cold and hunger, she crept along; poor little child, she looked the picture of misery. The snowflakes fell on her long, fair hair, which hung in curls on her shoulders, but she regarded them not.

Lights were shining from every window, and there was a savory smell of roast goose, for it was New-year’s eve—yes, she remembered that. In a corner, between two houses, one of which projected beyond the other, she sank down and huddled herself together. She had drawn her little feet under her, but she could not keep off the cold; and she dared not go home, for she had sold no matches, and could not take home even a penny of money. Her father would certainly beat her; besides, it was almost as cold at home as here, for they had only the roof to cover them, through which the wind howled, although the largest holes had been stopped up with straw and rags. Her little hands were almost frozen with the cold. Ah! perhaps a burning match might be some good, if she could draw it from the bundle and strike it against the wall, just to warm her fingers. She drew one out—“scratch!” how it sputtered as it burnt! It gave a warm, bright light, like a little candle, as she held her hand over it. It was really a wonderful light. It seemed to the little girl that she was sitting by a large iron stove, with polished brass feet and a brass ornament. How the fire burned! and seemed so beautifully warm that the child stretched out her feet as if to warm them, when, lo! the flame of the match went out, the stove vanished, and she had only the remains of the half-burnt match in her hand.

She rubbed another match on the wall. It burst into a flame, and where its light fell upon the wall it became as transparent as a veil, and she could see into the room. The table was covered with a snowy white table-cloth, on which stood a splendid dinner service, and a steaming roast goose, stuffed with apples and dried plums. And what was still more wonderful, the goose jumped down from the dish and waddled across the floor, with a knife and fork in its breast, to the little girl. Then the match went out, and there remained nothing but the thick, damp, cold wall before her.

She lighted another match, and then she found herself sitting under a beautiful Christmas-tree. It was larger and more beautifully decorated than the one which she had seen through the glass door at the rich merchant’s. Thousands of tapers were burning upon the green branches, and colored pictures, like those she had seen in the show-windows, looked down upon it all. The little one stretched out her hand towards them, and the match went out.

The Christmas lights rose higher and higher, till they looked to her like the stars in the sky. Then she saw a star fall, leaving behind it a bright streak of fire. “Someone is dying,” thought the little girl, for her old grandmother, the only one who had ever loved her, and who was now dead, had told her that when a star falls, a soul was going up to God.

She again rubbed a match on the wall, and the light shone round her; in the brightness stood her old grandmother, clear and shining, yet mild and loving in her appearance. “Grandmother,” cried the little one, “O take me with you; I know you will go away when the match burns out; you will vanish like the warm stove, the roast goose, and the large, glorious Christmas-tree.” And she made haste to light the whole bundle of matches, for she wished to keep her grandmother there. And the matches glowed with a light that was brighter than the noon-day, and her grandmother had never appeared so large or so beautiful. She took the little girl in her arms, and they both flew upwards in brightness and joy far above the earth, where there was neither cold nor hunger nor pain, for they were with God.

In the dawn of morning there lay the poor little one, with pale cheeks and smiling mouth, leaning against the wall; she had been frozen to death on the last evening of the year; and the New-year’s sun rose and shone upon a little corpse! The child still sat, in the stiffness of death, holding the matches in her hand, one bundle of which was burnt. “She tried to warm herself,” said some. No one imagined what beautiful things she had seen, nor into what glory she had entered with her grandmother, on New-year’s day.

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Caroling is such a wonderful experience; singing for all the elderly folks and talking (mostly listening) to them. It just melts my heart to see them. One of the old man started complaining about how he didn't have legs so he couldn't go out and have fun like us, and he really made me feel very grateful for my physical completeness. It just reminds me of every time i'll walk past the old lady selling tissue paper and feeling guilty and yet being too apathetic to just turn around and buy from her.

I guess habit/routine numbs emotions, and probably moulds a new set of morality suited for practicality + materialism + societal acceptance. That's why we have to regularly revisit our original moral codes and remove all these discrepencies from our lives as soon as they appear, lest they become deeply embedded in our lives that we fail to realise their existence.

D:

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asdfghjkl not again ):

little matchstick

2008-12-16T23:21:00.002+08:00

-`Çhanky; says:
what your nick mean

- Josh - little matchsticks says:
little matchstick girl

- Josh - little matchsticks says:
selling little matchsticks

-`Çhanky; says:
oh
the chinese textbook story right
<33

- Josh - little matchsticks says:
lol

-`Çhanky; says:
what the story sbout again

- Josh - little matchsticks says:
small poor girl standing at side of road selling matchsticks
before christmas
snowing, very cold
everyone dao her
so she lights a match to keep warm
then she sees a feast for a while, then the match goes out
she lights another, then she sees a christmas tree with lots of presents underneath, then the light goes out again
she lights a third, and sees her granma, who takes her away
yup
so she dies

-`Çhanky; says:
wth are you kidding me

- Josh - little matchsticks says:
no
just that the story is told in a much nicer way

okay i guess i kinda miss reading my chinese textbooks (even though i hardly read it D:)
lol happy kevin i blogged non-corally stuff (Y)

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chchkmp was really great in a very normal sense, like no emotional high (ya i wouldn't wanna treat God as LSD) but it's a very conscious and real faith to me now and for that i'm really quite glad+grateful! :D

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k first caroling tmr wishusluk! D:

final perf together

2008-12-13T08:06:00.001+08:00

yay omg first/last performance together <3 <

ahh wade+lux+ificanhelp were really nice omg (even though the last rehearsal was better IT'S RAFFLESIAN TRADITION HAHA) i'm so privileged/happy/contented to be able to perform the olomouc competition pieces that you all did AHHH! <3

okay i'm sucking at expression and fried doesn't wanna help me think of a good word for it so yaaaaaa i JUST FEEL OMGOMGREALLYVERY LUCKY :D

maybe it's because now i feel more chorale-ly complete,

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oh okay btw i'm not gonna change my blog url just because other people read it. okay maybe i hurt your feelings, but i've removed whatever hurtful prose i've composed; it's now in the past, so can we be mature+mutual over this matter? and since i don't even know your blog/who you are/how you look like, let's just stay out of each other's lives (i mean this in the most formal, objective and polite fashion).

k thanks alot;
i hope you'll try to have a great life ahead of you and i wish you all the best in whatever you attempt to do.

the portion dedicated to this unknown stranger ends here.

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when people say, "don't worry k", they usually say that 'there's no use in worrying since worrying isn't going to change anything about it.'

i.e. alvls results, since you probably can't change your results (unless you're super sneaky and really pro that you can like stuff yourself into the bag with all the exam scripts and change all your answers on the way to cambridge and then swim all the way back to avoid getting caught/paying for erp taxes/toll fees), then there's really not much use in worrying since you're just gonna OMGOMGOMGSTRESS yourself out more and it's quite useless =.=

but if there's something that you can do, you shouldn't be worrying in the first place unless you're some lousy lazy noob who just sits there worrying D:

ya so if you can't do anything about it, you shouldn't be worrying about it.
but if you can do something about it, you should've have done that thing and stopped worrying about it.

when then, are we required to worry,
if life even requires worry?

wycf sucks

2008-12-02T20:31:00.007+08:00

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on a separately but nonetheless totally relevant note,
wycf is awesome i love everything about it >_>

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yay i got hotel job with guan and dennis at oriental mandarin (y)
and omg i cannot eat with guandennisyifan already can die la WTH DAMN RETARDED+SICK PLEASE =.=

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ohh and i met gen at citylink (omg gen is so fashionable i wish i had good fashion sense as well) and she was STILL buying prom stuff omg i think prom is so exciting like for the girls because you get to spend on alot alot of stuff and look the best of your whole entire youth! D:

aiyah all the guys will look shuai and the girls will look chio enjoy yourselves k! (:

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ahh these few days have been hell for us i don't know what's gonna happen from now onwards.

You'll be loved you'll be loved
Like you never have known
The memories of me
Will seem more like bad dreams
Just a series of blurs
Like I never occurred
Someday you will be loved

but i'm glad you're in a better condition than me now (:

take care alright ><

farewell farewell

2008-11-27T00:09:00.012+08:00

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: Fatigued/Bittersweet
Current Music: Biggest Dreamer

i think today totally rocked/stunned/broke/wrenched/melted my heart! D:/:D

i really shouldn't be up so late, but for this post, i'm willing to risk my getting owned by parents!!!1

ahh i'm really being contemplative, whether to begin on a narrative post, or go beyond that and really write more than the mere events ><

BEFORE ANYTHING THOUGH!!

j1s

THANKYOU VIC EMMY KAILE LIONEL LISA CHUNLING YIHUI LINAN YISHENG FOR BEING SO NICE AND ACTUALLY COME AND MAKE IT FOR THIS FAREWELL
AND BRINGING YOUR PILLOWS/CUSHIONS/PLUSHIES/SEXBOMB HAHAHAHAA
AND BUYING STUFF (including the chilled coffee =.=)
AND SAIKANGING THE COTTONWOOL+DOUBLESIDED TAPE
AND CUTTING COLOURED PAPER TO PASTE THE UNGLAM J2 PHOTOS
AND PROVIDING MUSIC+VID+LOTSOFTECHNICALSTUFF
AND MAKING THE FUNCTION ROOM SOSOSOSO NICE! D: ( i seriously didn't know my function room could look THAT gooood!)

i've always thought that once the j2s left i really wouldn't be close to the j1s, but i guess i was wrong :D yay i think you guys rock omg!!!

and anyway THANKS TO ALL THE J1S WHO COULDN'T MAKE IT TODAY >< BUT WITHOUT ALL OF YOU WE SRSLY WOULDN'T HAVE ENOUGH STUFF FOR THE WHOLE PARTY K SO GRATEFUL OMG! yay <3

j2s

OMGTHANKYOUALL FOR ACTUALLY MAKING TIME TO COME OMGOMGOMG I'M SO HAPPY THAT SO MANY OF YOU COULD MAKE IT AHHH I HOPE YOU ALL HAD SUPERDUPERLY LOADS OF FUN!

thankyou kialiang for being such a stalkerwhore and accompanying me while buying breakfast for family (:
thankyou suet for bringing my gen's notes and gc (but failing badly at transferring apps HAHAHAHA it's okay you'll never have to use gcs ever again!)
thankyou gen for my gen's notes yay omg so thick so heavy gah i really must get down to reading them D: and and for your woodenframe with note and tallgen&shortjorel! so mean omg but <3 anywayy!
thankyou royce for actually making time just to come for like halfhour (paiseh omg) but going off for mep bbq :/ it's okay i hope you had fun!
thankyou for the rest for actually coming! (actly i seriously would wanna go one by one but i would probably go out of point in this post and screw this up omg)

~

narrative

met kia
walked with kia buy breakfast
went home
meet kia with suet
met all the rest of j2s
take kiastuff/genstuff home
go fetch vic emmy kaile
buystuff with them at ntuc
met bennettquan at ntuc too
went back to function room
started bringing stuff down
vacuumed the sofas
pasted cotton+dblsidedtape hearts and words
bought lunch/cotton/dblsidedtape with lionelvic
bought honeydew yami yoghurt mmm
ate fillet o fish meal from macs and the rest were almost completing the colouredpaper+unglamphotos
linan came
went up to get the farewellvid for linan
sent to him
went up again with lionelvic to wash candyflossmachine and play pachelbel on piano
wentbackdown and cozycorner WASDAMNNICEOMG<333
royce came
started raining likeshit
one by one came
went to fetch quan + friedkiasuetbennett and other ppl i can't rmb paiseh
j2 played musical chairs
played whacko
opened the surprise cozycorner
played murderer
waited for food
went to get more people
got manicured by cat+joelle (omg shiny thumb + gothblack fingers argh) D:
sis koped food
wennycame
loiswentupusedcomsuckcannotopenhotmailnoob
gencame
madethemwatch 7:16 farewellvid (ahh <3 seasons of love!) & prepared the tealights+muffins heart! OMG I LOVE THIS PART
SANG IRISH BLESSING AND SCREWED UP BUT EVERYONE CAME IN YAY
said some stuff to j2s );
sang omagnum in sop omg i totally miss sop D:
sang along to song of triumph
~~cried~~
camwhored with tenors
with geoffried
got gen frame note thingum
switched on lights had fun
took j2batchpics alotalot
camwhored more
hugged alot of people
asked isaac to serenade me HAHAHAA
heard j2s singing pamugun & alot of other songs
started clearing the cotton+dblsidedtape omg the old one sucks we HAD alot of trouble (thankyou j2s) removing them HHAHAAA
had more hugging
cleared the room more
lisa kaile vic helped me take stuff up thanks and shouted thanks auntie to my mum (omg damn scary walaoo) (:
one by one left
stayed back with geofwennycharkiabennettisaac
then they left
saw geof wenny off
went home
shower
blogging/missing them very much

i love all of you

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nostalgic

omg i really wanna write stuff down here, but it's seriously not coming out, it was cathartic, now it's withdrawing =.= maybe i'll sleep it over and consolidate my thoughts to make this post more meaningful and comprehensible (:

okay this is like 3 days later and i'm still quite vague as to what i wanna type =.=

I WILL WAIT TILL THE YEAR REALLY ENDS AND WHEN I NEVER SEE ALL OF YOU AGAIN THEN I'LL WRITE THESE STUFF DOWN!

for now, let's just cherish us. <3

farewell finally?

2008-11-26T14:58:00.002+08:00

omg rushrush hahahaha i'm actually blogging in between preparing for farewell (:

okay anyway must hurry up put points that i wanna blog before i leave k:
(don't worry i'll try to elaborate on them when i come back!)

talk with taxi driver about 2-faced sporeans, respecting parents etc.
emily being really weird, and the rest of j1 chorale too (HAHAHAHAA i don't think this needs alot of elab)

ohtoomuchgossipinfo
alwayslisteningtoppl<33ing

farewell prep
hmm okay omg my mind is swirlywhirlyificated that i can't focus on what to type omg gibberish here i come jaklsdhfakjshflkjfh

brb farewellparty beckons! (:

farewell soon

2008-11-22T23:27:00.006+08:00

talking about it already fills my eyes with tears?
(must be the dcfc music playing too)

omg cannot cry on that day wth =.=

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edit:

omg to make it extra-depressing i'll add a song D:

anyway it's one of those omg-my-life-is-complete songs so ya i still would've put it up >< yaa it's an english song but teresa teng covered it omg i think she's damn really damn imba zai leet haxxed she can like sing english chinese hokkien cantonese jap etc etc!

lol btw the original's by some girl called Charlene.
and it's one of the nicer pachelbel chordprogression songs i've heard yay (:

presenting,
i've never been to me
by teresa teng

oh the lyrics are quite sad (not in the oh miie haart bwokkes way lol =.=)
you can go search for them yourselves ):

kk ttyl dinnner

loveful

2008-11-21T00:40:00.003+08:00

omg cannot underestimate love! D:

edit:
okay i guess everyone hates one-liner blogposts (i personally detest it too gah) yaa so i'll type more stuff hhahahaa

anyway i kinda forgot why i typed the one-liner, so i won't bother elaborating on it xD

k this gonna be damn random post

yay my gum is like healing i think it's good to have curious friends who are always eager to see your injuries o.O

and omg stupid blogger deleted my post nevermind i'll think of it again and post it some other time =.=

gah must get down to writing their notes omg zzz D:

editedit:

okay i shall post a daaamn emonice song here yay
lol be warned they have quite alot of makeup!
but i like the violin soloes nice nice (:

presenting,
au revoir by malice mizer!

HAHAHAHA LIONMAN LOL!

4p dinner

2008-11-18T00:54:00.002+08:00

yay i'm damn tired so i won't blog too much, but 4p dinner was damn screwedupwin (Y)

we (me slau josh kev peng hiok nat mer chee ben leo ed bak) went arcade to play parapara and marvel vs capcom which was damn fun (thx gabbytan ftw) and then we went to seoul garden and totally screwed up all the grills and the soup bowls like crap until it was so charred we had to ask them to replace newer ones to screw them up again lol

ya then after that we all went back arcade and played more parapara and mvsc and seetow came and started pwning at mvsc argh damn cheat and imba zzz okay then we left and now i'm home and i should really be sleeping but i wanna check all my emails but msn is lagging and failing and i can't finish all my emails so now i'm quite pist and angry

but i'm listening to dcfc (:

chorale chalet

2008-11-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

hahahha chorale chalet was damn fun yay lionel you rock! (:

lol i think this is gonna be another narrative post maybe when i'm feeling bored and coincidentally online i'll blog more insightful stuff >_>

anyway like after prac we went to pastamania eat and waited until 2 just for the 30% discount lol then it was some random indian girl's birthday and they were sitting near us so when they started bringing her cake and and singing birthday song we joined along too argh spontaneous screwed-upness ftw (Y) (omg run-on sentence argh)

then we went to mrt to go pasirris and then we went into the costa sands chalet and started watching enchanted omgg the girl damn bimb and the price damn retarded zzz luckily they never get married hahahhaa typical ending kiss yay happy happy she live and the evil witch who became dragon died lol =.= oh then the songs quite nice and the 'vocalizing' thing where she attract all the animals to dance around and be her manual labour slaves zzz damn screwed up so annoying omg! D:

ya okay anyway after that everyone started playing games and starting fires etc etc and we had bbq and the food quite nice except for occasional sausages which ended up looking like tumours lol and got salmon for bbq OMG damn exquisite please i like! xD k laa was quite filling and then after eating we started praccing farewell stuff and discussing farewell things (omg lucky i'm damn smart and never say what we doing or else all the bagua seniors read everything alr then not fun lol)

so then after that we hardcored bridge and i kept losing omg and then i hardcored daidi and lisa kept losing HAHAHHAA and the girls were watching pride and prejudice then everyone started wanted to sleep, and victoria was alr sleeping like some pig and lionel and isa wanted to sleep and isa was like 'OMG I DON'T WANNA BE PREGNANT WITH LIONEL'S BABIES!' gahh damn innocently horny please =.= yaa then i think we made a hell lot of noise so the office ppl came and started scolding us like at 4am oops :/

then next morning everyone woke up damn early like 7/8 around there slept like 3+ hrs only please how fail argh. oh then the annoying isabellelow got high again (OMGG T_T)and started doing actcute 'you are bad! i am sad! you are bad so i am sad!' jingles aargh damn funny in some retarded isa way HAHAHHAA so later we went to bk to eat breakfast and stone-ed and then go back to pack up etc etc and then we left for mrt lol

oh ya after that me victoria karen wuyang went some azabu sabo jap icecream place and lionel joined us and we ate machi icecream greentea siansian then we played truth or ~~dare~~ double truth but i really sucked at it because i didn't sound convincing enough and everyone didn't believe me bleh not my fault loh ): and LOL AT WUYANG HHAHAHAHAAAHHAA ARGH! XD

ya then after that force me go shopping but then nothing looked nice whatever i shall buy new clothes soon zzz then we went off go home alr sleeeeep

goodnights argh dammit it's the next morning alr gah i should learn how to blog faster/earlier damn procrastinate zzz

kevinlim kevinsim

2008-11-09T14:39:00.004+08:00

ARGH ARGH WTH OMGGG SCREWED UP GAH! D:

okay i just added kevinsim (the guy from student services centre who advises you on scholarships and uni applictions etcetc) on msn and his msn nick is K (ya wtf!). and then kevinlim's is also k. what's with kevin -im people, like turfed on msn. wtf later i get another one then can lynch ppl already zzz. oh but then got merrill lynch alr lol. argh gah wth that sounded like a peng joke shit damn screwed up too much 4p egroup emails alr. =.=

anyway is is argh is is damn screwed up as well and is is due tmr omg T_T
is my is what an is is supposed to be zzz i hope it is o.O
okay okay work i shall go work now is is on its way to completion (Y)

k
bai

pwop done yay!

2008-11-05T00:19:00.008+08:00

yay pwop be finally done ftw! i think jarrod lee was quite nice he gave me simple qns for q&a(:

okay i think a hell lot of ppl would prolly say omg yay pw over i hated pw omg omg omg etc. but i think pw was damn fun! (don't flame now read on please :/)
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OKAY BACK TO THE POINT OF THIS POST. (lol i bet you forgot what i was talking about, don't worry you still can scroll back up muahhaahahaa)

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not because of pw though, but because of MARVEL VS CAPCOM/STREET FIGHTER HELLYEAH! XD
gabbytan you rock hahahahaa omg ya we played all the way past choachukang to jurong east and back (Y) omg damn fun! ^^ i think jin/gambit and ken/spiderman are damn zaaiii but shumagorath/blackheart is damn fun HAHHAAHAA!

hmmmm okay i'm blogging because i just finished i&r too yay quite happy (:
but my holidays are damn packed omg i wanna go out sometime D:

okay i got nothing else to blog except uhh.
good luck for j1s still doing op! (even though it's abit i'm sorry :/)
& good luck for the rest of alvls j2s!

(:

the night's quite lovely.

$20 borders voucher ftw!

2008-10-28T20:51:00.010+08:00

YAY OMG I ~~WINNED~~ [edit] argh i meant won gahh grammar failz D: [/edit] A $20 BORDERS VOUCHER!!1!!11

lol now everyone knows i took a damn ridiculous survey =.=

hhahahaha i wonder what book i should spend it on : / maybe i should buy that murphy's law book about why toasts always land butterside down (Y)

in the meantime...

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i miss ~~maple~~ the old days

owned vincent/keveen at maths

2008-10-24T00:03:00.003+08:00

lol owned vincent at maths (Y)

MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
ok help me
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
i'm given values for log_10(2) and log_10(3)
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
and i need to calculate log_10(5) off those
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
without calculator
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
halp?

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-`Çhanky; says:
log 5 = log (10/2) = log 10 - log 2
-`Çhanky; says:
is there a value for log 10
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
nope
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
only 2 and 3
-`Çhanky; says:
as in
-`Çhanky; says:
ln e = 1
-`Çhanky; says:
so log 10 = 1
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
OH
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
SHIT
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
omg
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
damn smart
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
!
-`Çhanky; says:
hahahaha
-`Çhanky; says:
ya you're seriously retarded
-`Çhanky; says:
hahahahaa
-`Çhanky; says:
i'm gonna post this on my blog
-`Çhanky; says:
and prove that i owned vincent
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
omg
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
you owned me
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
and keveen
MILIEU = ENVIRONMENT and UPEND = OVERTURN, GP DEPARTMENT says:
SHIT
-`Çhanky; says:
hahhaa yes i winned (Y)
-`Çhanky; says:
hahaha i love your nick
I got owned by jorel and an easy question! Like wtfbbq fail says:
-.-
I got owned by jorel and an easy question! Like wtfbbq fail says:
:(

hhahhahaa omg see GRADES DON'T MATTER DAMMIT THE EDUCATION SYSTEM ISN'T WORKING RIGHT! XD

water in nose

2008-10-22T10:46:00.002+08:00

argh omg water is srsly dripping out my nose whenever i'm drinking water wth gahh D: D:

anyway last night was fun lol geof's super secret gay adventure hope you had a happy birthday haha(Y)

k i going out to see dentist/surgeon/doctor/miracle worker person bye :/

tegami finally!

2008-10-20T23:38:00.005+08:00

hahahhaha yay my com is finally fixed omg feels damn weird without com i'm probably addicted T_T (but omg all my favs in internet explorer are GONE OMG SAD!)

but anyway i managed to hardcore 7 episodes of nobuta wo produce! (Y) quite nice KAME AND YAMAPI ARE COOL hhahahaa thankyou huiyi! (: omg and i just got ff7 from jit argh i must finish it fast gah gah stress hahaahahaa! D:

oh anyway today was promo results back and uh
i'm quite happy that i improved for all my results (except maths grr) by few grades each (YEAH 4 GRADES FOR ECONS FTW) ya okay life goes on i must studyhard! organic chem here i come! xD

ya okay that was damn short lol
so anyway i just wanted to post a vid of a v v nice song! hahahaa i've been searching for it since sec1 yay like another 'mylife'scompleteyayicandienowomg' vid! (:

okay presenting,
tegami by yukie nishimura! (if my jap doesn't fail me lol)
enjoy! ^^

btw don't mind the random dramatic intro lol damn suan and weird xD

and wtf at the end of the vid the guy died josh you rock shit damn freaking random vid(Y)

campbell's finally

2008-10-12T17:25:00.001+08:00

yay i've moved on from baby food to campbell's soup! :D

mmm campbell's yay ^^

dental surgery omg

2008-10-11T18:00:00.004+08:00

gahh D:

okay i just had surgery like ytd, and i think it's quite cool to go for the surgery, but it sucks after it T_T

haha this is gonna be a narrative post again lalalaa

anyway i went to the op theatre and they injected my vein with some stuff so i could feel like minty stuff running through my veins then omg got onehitko'ed i srsly don't rmb anything after that. o.O

but when i woke up i was alr on the bed and i was still feeling sleepy so i slept for 2 hrs+ and i had a hell lot of gauzes in my mouth and they were soaked BLACK with blood DD:

ya so after a while of rolling around and having newer gauzes stuffed in my mouth, i finally decided that the bed was sian and i wanted to go home. hahahaaa oh ya btw the nurse asked if i played the piano, because i had pretty fingers! xD then when i was dozing between being conscious and not really, i heard the nurses talking about the 8pm hongkong drama on channel 55! HAHAHAHA DAMN COOL LOL xD

oh oops i never say what's the surgery about >< i went to pluck out 8 teeth (zOMG!), 2 milk, 2 [edit] 4 [/edit] perma, 2 wis!1!!111 argh it feels damn weird to have many holes in your mouth T_T

so now i'm like eating baby food quite yummy hahaa better than porridge and oatmeal and milo (: but i got stitches and the stitched up place is numb and got alot of possible complications like i can't sneeze or blow nose or suck mucus or drink from straw etc. because they plucked out a tooth near my sinus so if there's too much pressure a hole will appear and water i drink will flow into my nose (hahahaa can do magic tricks alr xDD) okay anyhoo i hope that doesn't happen! T_T

hahahahaa on the bright side, i got mc until thurs yay so if you wanna go out call me k! (:

yay okay i have bloggeded i shall be of the going offline and trying to rest more now! ^^

gossipmongingfromsuet(:

2008-10-09T23:23:00.004+08:00

hahahha today was so crappy omg!
i just came to sch for morning assembly and then i had no more lessons =.=
so we went to do pw for a while, then we went to raja to play badminton, and then we went amphi to play soccer (oops sorry audrey T_T) which is quite fun but then people started flooding the area outside lt2 so we stopped playing zzz.
then i went to watch ben and josh play (and own) metal slug. gah damn hardcore they practically memorised what's gonna come next alr (Y) oh and i ate $4 worth of food from westernfoodstall which is like the highest ever i've spent on that stall! xD

oh after stoning there i was walking around school trying to waste more time when i suddenly chanced upon unfantastic suet! hahaha omg damn fun you gossip horribly excessively! D: and but suet and joelle started konking out and becoming insane and koped my phone so we started chasing each other around the class but she and joelle went into the female toilet SO ANNOYING! they started changing my addressbook names, damn retarded please omg =.=
so uhh after falling asleep me suet went to eat food and gossip somemore >< and kuankuan came along and loyce and kialiang came too and kept being gay. aiyah stupid amos say i got girly hardwriting rawr! and joelle said i got girly fingernails and legs wth. k whatever, nonsense! =.=
then i went home (thanks daddy bobo) and watched my 7pm korean drama serial! ^^ omg i cannot get hooked to these kind of stuff so addictive T_T but who cares hahahahaa!

omg must stop narrating stuff so much i bet i haven't been doing any retrospective/introspective/brain-required blogging for the last fews posts gah D:

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anyway isa get well soon!

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omgg tmr is surgery lkjshflkjashf i won't be online tmr i guess, i'll get warded too hahaha xD

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okay goodnight (:

aftermaths of promos

2008-09-30T20:34:00.022+08:00

omgg i procrastinated (even though promos are over and i'm free!)
anyway i won't say too much about how promos were, but...

promos were fun (Y)
yes.

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oh ya okay today there was chorale outing with lisa, isa, boys, bobo, viven, lionel, wuyang and amy and we went to eat pizzahut at j8 and we met chriszhao and gerald there (OMG)!

then after alot of thinkings we went to marina sq to watch eagle eye but i had to leave halfway (around the part where they found out that aria has been a very, very naughty girl) and went to gabbytan house to play pool, but i was one hour late (which is the duration of our pool table booking gah D:) so we played table tennis instead yay fun xD

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ohya i sang backup and played piano response for church on sat yay quite happy i guess harmonising is kinda intuitive and nicesounding haha ^^ i'll try my best to continue serving and hope that God will provide my every need. (:

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"The sun shines on this Parasol of mine. Where I walk, enemies balk, and I
float gently down..."

I've just finished nightmare in dreamland in less than 2 full days! (:
now i'm playing amazing mirror but it's damn confusing and non-linear omg gamefaqs here i come D:

argh i actually made a list of stuff to do/wanna do after promos but the only ones i've achieved are 'play kirby!' gahh hmm must be productive i've got few more days in the week left to get the momentum (of being productive) going so i will actually BE productive! ^^

GO JOREL!! :D

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i <3 death cab for cutie! i think they're all amazing musicians and their music is really nice! it's like emo but not whiney but really lyrical and meaningful hahhaa i'm so lost for words! <33 xD

okay okay post first vid of dcfc i watched!

presenting,
i will follow you into the dark - dcfc!

the rabbits are really really adorable right! (:

I Will Follow You Into The Dark

Love of mine some day you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark

No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black
And I held my tongue as she told me
"Son fear is the heart of love"
So I never went back

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the NOs on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark

You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok to Calgary
And the soles of your shoes are all worn down
The time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about
'cause we'll hold each other soon
In the blackest of rooms

If Heaven and Hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the No's on their vacancy signs

If there's no one beside you
When your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark

<3!

septholsmugsian

2008-09-07T23:35:00.002+08:00

okay septhols be ending soon...

hmm i shall just keep record of what happened

weijie left for switzerland
george left for edinburgh
went westmall about 5 times
went school to mug 3 times
talked to kevinlim everyday wtf total waste of time
did mini-is proposal
made physics notes
didn't use the pail of water to flush the toilet
did a stupid meme
lost my <3 phone at the cupcorn/tutukueh stall at pasar malam
went to find the phone the next day but the pasar malam closed wtf
auditioned for neesoon countdown gig at olando studio without a single prac
went plazasing early in the morning to buy stuff, nice to shop in the mornings
talked a hell lot on msn
got an old blackberry phone to use but i don't know how to type punctuations and emotes so i type exclamation mark and happy face instead (fail)
met fiona on mrt
met felicia on mrt
met george on mrt
mugged abit of PCM but no KI or e omg gahh D:

okay that's about it it's gonna be tmr soon goodnight i shall make this post more...interesting if i can be bothered to come back and edit it even though promos are in 2 weeks good luck everyone